No one understood what I said in my last post because it was too long. The reason it was too long is because I have autism.
Being nonNT is why I'm edgy, cringe, immature, sped, whatever you want to call it. I didn't choose to be nonNT just as I didn't choose to be ugly.
I'm going to take action soon. The reason why I was thinking so much, was because I didn't want to fuck up again. I know that people will "move on" from the fitxfearless video but that doesn't detract from the fact that I'm fucked. Maybe I have to use an analogy for it to make sense. "If I rape a woman now, and I go to jail, and 10 years in the future, no one is talking about me raping that woman, 10 years from now, my reputation would still be ruined. Even if people "move on/don't care" that I raped that woman, it doesn't mean your life still isn't fucked because it's something that will always be associated with you. It's "association" which is the problem, not the fact that people care or not. I know no one cares, I'm still a public humilation so I'm still fucked.
If I went the traditional job route, there would be too many cons. I would have to hide/be anonymous, I'm too controversial and saying the truth is controversial (r/byebyejob), it wouldn't justify the pain, because if I'm a viral humilation, then I get to 32, working a shitty 9 - 5 in a different country, I would probably rope. I would have to risk getting fired and would basically be a slave to a liberal organization. And it's further submission and humilation, because in case I died, I would solely be associated with the Fitxfearless video even if I slaved myself to a job with an anonymous name. I don't want to hide, I want to have free speech but I can't if I work a job. There's no incel revolution in a corporate setting.
If I'm serious about the goals I have, and I'm not larping, then I would find a way to make a sustainable income outside of a traditional job then diversify. If I had multiple income streams outside of a traditional job, then I would be free to say what I want and online footprint wouldn't matter because I wouldn't have to worry about getting fired.
The probem is making money outside of a tradition job as an autistic ugly male is impossible no matter how hard I worked. I don't even care that I'm autistic, it's being ugly that's the main problem. It's hard to succeed in any online business model if you're ugly. This is why my situation is genuinely fucked, and I'm "schizo." I have no financial future, if I don't act now, it's very possible I'll be homeless in the future. If I want to change people's perception of me, I have to talk, in order to talk, it ruins an online footprint which results in getting fired, because if you say anything that they don't like, you'll get fired. A job in my situation is very unsafe, but the alternative is even more unsafe.
Being nonNT is why I'm edgy, cringe, immature, sped, whatever you want to call it. I didn't choose to be nonNT just as I didn't choose to be ugly.
I'm going to take action soon. The reason why I was thinking so much, was because I didn't want to fuck up again. I know that people will "move on" from the fitxfearless video but that doesn't detract from the fact that I'm fucked. Maybe I have to use an analogy for it to make sense. "If I rape a woman now, and I go to jail, and 10 years in the future, no one is talking about me raping that woman, 10 years from now, my reputation would still be ruined. Even if people "move on/don't care" that I raped that woman, it doesn't mean your life still isn't fucked because it's something that will always be associated with you. It's "association" which is the problem, not the fact that people care or not. I know no one cares, I'm still a public humilation so I'm still fucked.
If I went the traditional job route, there would be too many cons. I would have to hide/be anonymous, I'm too controversial and saying the truth is controversial (r/byebyejob), it wouldn't justify the pain, because if I'm a viral humilation, then I get to 32, working a shitty 9 - 5 in a different country, I would probably rope. I would have to risk getting fired and would basically be a slave to a liberal organization. And it's further submission and humilation, because in case I died, I would solely be associated with the Fitxfearless video even if I slaved myself to a job with an anonymous name. I don't want to hide, I want to have free speech but I can't if I work a job. There's no incel revolution in a corporate setting.
If I'm serious about the goals I have, and I'm not larping, then I would find a way to make a sustainable income outside of a traditional job then diversify. If I had multiple income streams outside of a traditional job, then I would be free to say what I want and online footprint wouldn't matter because I wouldn't have to worry about getting fired.
The probem is making money outside of a tradition job as an autistic ugly male is impossible no matter how hard I worked. I don't even care that I'm autistic, it's being ugly that's the main problem. It's hard to succeed in any online business model if you're ugly. This is why my situation is genuinely fucked, and I'm "schizo." I have no financial future, if I don't act now, it's very possible I'll be homeless in the future. If I want to change people's perception of me, I have to talk, in order to talk, it ruins an online footprint which results in getting fired, because if you say anything that they don't like, you'll get fired. A job in my situation is very unsafe, but the alternative is even more unsafe.
