King GrAY
outcastcel
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For those who don't know me, let me introduce myself as the biggest loser of my high school. My girl classmates hated me because I was a weird and disgusting freak. And I never fit in with the boys. I was bullied everyday, no exaggeration.
A couple of years ago, I saw on Facebook pictures of our section's 10-year high school reunion. They ate out. The only problem was, no one ever invited me. When I saw those pictures, I felt hurt. Something peculiar though, none of my friends from my friend group was there too. I wondered were they not invited too or were they? I thought to myself that if they weren't also, I wouldn't feel as bad. Because maybe the cool kids just wanted a small celebration. But if they were, that would be terrible. It would show just how much they hated me.
I didn't want the pain to be useless. There is a saying "Success is the best revenge.". I said to myself that I will be greater than everyone of them. In fact, I will be greater than all of them combined!
I've had a rough time in my life but I am working on it.
During our time in high school, I belonged to the friend group of social outsiders. I like to call us the 4 misfits. But there was something special about me. Out of us 4, I was by far the most hated, the biggest loser from our class. So I didn't know: maybe they were invited because they weren't as big of losers as I was, or maybe they weren't if the reunion was meant to be a small one.
I wanted to ask those friends of mine, but they stopped messaging with me on Messenger. I don't know. Maybe they're just busy adulting. But last evening, I tried again. I messaged my best friend asking him if he was invited to our class reunion. And past midnight, he replied to me, for the first time after a few years. He told me he was busy with work so he hadn't caught up with me anymore. You know what he said? "Which one?". His words implied that they had regular meet ups. And I was never invited to any of these. And he answered my question: He was invited; and that he just didn't go because he was busy with work. This suggests that I was the only one not invited. Okay, there were two more friends whom I haven't asked, because they haven't been replying to me anymore. So how would I know? Maybe they weren't invited either. But because I already knew that this one friend of mine was invited, I think most likely, the rest were too.
I thought I wasn't going to be upset. But seconds later, I was shivering. I went downstairs to eat. I overate. I must have been eating the sadness away. It seemed I was more upset than I realized.
Let me share two more stories.
My classmates organized a birthday celebration for our class adviser. And my classmates told me that I wasn't allowed to join. I actually had a good reputation with the teachers because I wasn't a troublemaker like many others; they saw me as a good boy. I was also seen as very intelligent, which I think the teachers appreciated. And our class adviser was no exception. She liked me. So when she found out that I was being excluded from the event, she demanded that i join. Thanks to her, I got to be a part of the birthday celebration.
We had our class pictures taken one day. I was in a bad mood that day. So in the middle of our photoshoot, I left. Back then I was pretty dumb so I didn't know how to get copies. But eventually, one of my former classmates uploaded our class photo to Facebook. And you know what picture was chosen? The one that didn't have me in it. Was it intentional? I don't know! But I think it was.
What I want to say is this. If they could do these to me when I was their classmate, exclude me, it wouldn't be hard to imagine they'd do this to me after, by not inviting me to our class reunion.
My custom title in these forums is "outcastcel" because I think it is the best description on why I ended up an incel. The word definitely encapsulates me. I wonder how I would rank up compared to other users here when it comes to the word "outcast".
If you read all of these, I want to thank you.
Edited.
A couple of years ago, I saw on Facebook pictures of our section's 10-year high school reunion. They ate out. The only problem was, no one ever invited me. When I saw those pictures, I felt hurt. Something peculiar though, none of my friends from my friend group was there too. I wondered were they not invited too or were they? I thought to myself that if they weren't also, I wouldn't feel as bad. Because maybe the cool kids just wanted a small celebration. But if they were, that would be terrible. It would show just how much they hated me.
I didn't want the pain to be useless. There is a saying "Success is the best revenge.". I said to myself that I will be greater than everyone of them. In fact, I will be greater than all of them combined!
I've had a rough time in my life but I am working on it.
During our time in high school, I belonged to the friend group of social outsiders. I like to call us the 4 misfits. But there was something special about me. Out of us 4, I was by far the most hated, the biggest loser from our class. So I didn't know: maybe they were invited because they weren't as big of losers as I was, or maybe they weren't if the reunion was meant to be a small one.
I wanted to ask those friends of mine, but they stopped messaging with me on Messenger. I don't know. Maybe they're just busy adulting. But last evening, I tried again. I messaged my best friend asking him if he was invited to our class reunion. And past midnight, he replied to me, for the first time after a few years. He told me he was busy with work so he hadn't caught up with me anymore. You know what he said? "Which one?". His words implied that they had regular meet ups. And I was never invited to any of these. And he answered my question: He was invited; and that he just didn't go because he was busy with work. This suggests that I was the only one not invited. Okay, there were two more friends whom I haven't asked, because they haven't been replying to me anymore. So how would I know? Maybe they weren't invited either. But because I already knew that this one friend of mine was invited, I think most likely, the rest were too.
I thought I wasn't going to be upset. But seconds later, I was shivering. I went downstairs to eat. I overate. I must have been eating the sadness away. It seemed I was more upset than I realized.
Let me share two more stories.
My classmates organized a birthday celebration for our class adviser. And my classmates told me that I wasn't allowed to join. I actually had a good reputation with the teachers because I wasn't a troublemaker like many others; they saw me as a good boy. I was also seen as very intelligent, which I think the teachers appreciated. And our class adviser was no exception. She liked me. So when she found out that I was being excluded from the event, she demanded that i join. Thanks to her, I got to be a part of the birthday celebration.
We had our class pictures taken one day. I was in a bad mood that day. So in the middle of our photoshoot, I left. Back then I was pretty dumb so I didn't know how to get copies. But eventually, one of my former classmates uploaded our class photo to Facebook. And you know what picture was chosen? The one that didn't have me in it. Was it intentional? I don't know! But I think it was.
What I want to say is this. If they could do these to me when I was their classmate, exclude me, it wouldn't be hard to imagine they'd do this to me after, by not inviting me to our class reunion.
My custom title in these forums is "outcastcel" because I think it is the best description on why I ended up an incel. The word definitely encapsulates me. I wonder how I would rank up compared to other users here when it comes to the word "outcast".
If you read all of these, I want to thank you.
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