Venting I live in my mind

[packardD]

I believe some people just can’t be happy, EVER. First of all, of course I don’t believe any woman on this planet would ever want to be with, it just how it is. And even though I can “cope” with video games and music, in reality believe it or not my main cope is daydreaming. That is what I spend 95% of my free time doing. Maybe 85-90%, doesn’t matter. In my mind I live, in the real world I merely exist. Pretty often I come across some looksmaxxing / mog edits on youtube and I get struck with brutal Realisation that all that is not for me. Music and daydreaming are my only copes. And you know what the worst thing is ? The post daydream clarity. The brutal realization that what I just imagined to myself was fake. Back to the real world, brothER. Back to suffering. Suffering for absolutely nothing, I suppose? Lately I have just been lying on my bed blasting music and daydreaming all day long. Don’t have mental nor physical strength to do anything else. Honestly i am just really tired.



And the most important thing, it is not about women. In fact, for me has never really been about women, only partially. I always truly wanted one thing and one thing only - admiration. That is what I will never get. ovER

 

[Cincel]

I know man, I live in a fucking hell.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I know man, I live in a fucking hell.

 

[D. B. Gooner]

Yeah I've been daydreaming to the point I think I might be mentally ill. I can't listen to a song without imagining myself as the artist, or in an edit that uses that song (as cringe as that sounds), I can't watch a TV show without imagining myself as one of the characters, I can't look at some news story without imagining myself as the person in the center of it, when I'm not consuming any media, I just straight up use my imagination to live out full made up stories, lives, sometimes I relive the same made-up scenarions over and over again.

I insert myself everywhere but my own life. In real life I don't have friends, hobbies, interests, passions, goals (I want a family one day but I'm on here so you can guess how that's going). I have no idea how to turn it off, and even if I knew how I'm afraid I've been doing it for too long to stop. If I stop, I would literally have nothing to do with my time.

I want to one day do a one week experiment, where I ditch the internet, my phone, everything, and see if I would lose my mind. I've read cases of some suicidal people learning the ability to turn off their inner voice, and it completely solving their problems with anxiety and depression. It's worth a shot, but it's scary to imagine not having an inner monologue, my inner monologue comments on everything that I see or experience. Life would be weird without it.

 

[fjsfa]

Every molecule

 

[fjsfa]

I want to one day do a one week experiment, where I ditch the internet, my phone, everything, and see if I would lose my mind. I've read cases of some suicidal people learning the ability to turn off their inner voice, and it completely solving their problems with anxiety and depression. It's worth a shot, but it's scary to imagine not having an inner monologue, my inner monologue comments on everything that I see or experience. Life would be weird without it.

If you go through with it, you should write a post about it (assuming you didn't go insane). I've been suicidal for a long time but recently my anxiety and depression have skyrocketed to the point where I'm barely able to complete everyday tasks with daydreaming being my only bliss period where I can temporarily be free of it. As much as it'd be weird to not have a monologue, I'd 100% trade it just to not have to deal with this bs

 

[drowningindenial]

I know man, I live in a fucking hell.

 

[BSGMANLET]

Growing up I realized happiness is what most people try to find but can't find it so they fill it with useless hobbies or interest to past time,maybe that's why religion is also a thing we want to cling on to something we wish we had but can't get no matter what we do.

 

[Adolf Kitler]

In my mind I live, in the real world I merely exist.