Incels.is - Involuntary Celibate

I went for a sleepover in my best friends house. However he invited some girl he liked as well. We hanged out and then went to sleep in the same bed. They started to make out while i played games on my psp. I was laying right next to them. I literally got cucked. The memory just hit me. Now at 20 i still haven't kissed a woman while my friend got to do so at 11. When i think about this humiliation i want to kill myself.