Venting I know what's wrong, just can't change it

[A981]

I have OCD, really shitty and crippling OCD too. Not only that, but I'm a manlet with 0 socialisation throughout my life due to being "high iq" and different. (read: soy bullshit)
I know what's wrong, I know I should get a job and go outside to talk to people, but I just can't force myself to. I can't force myself to do any of this stupid shit anymore. I don't want to do ERP and suffer for a chance to be able to tolerate it better, and I don't want to make pointless charts and lists.

I don't want to have to get a job. The idea of working for 8 hours is completely alien to me. I'm used to being at the gym/working around the house in bursts of work, I can't work a manually demanding job for 8 hours, since I'd probably drop dead.

I want to live the life the others have been living naturally. I want to see the fun in their drinking, vaping and talking about soccer and other retarded shit. Last time I watched dbdr he talked about an 18 y.o. frat boy chad with a body count in the hundreds, who got approached for sex by older women at 14 (!). The life of luxury and pleasure he lives is completely different than mine.

I don't want to be told I'm a narcissist for wanting all of this, or any other soy bullshit, because I don't owe anyone anything. I don't want to pretend to not hate jews, blacks and the alphabet people because the person I'm talking to is one of them and they will trip my OCD and hurt me when I say what I think.

Why can't I just be naturally desirable?

 

[I respect women]

 

[A981]

brutal disability pill, it's truly over boyo

hell nigga I'm a cutecel to the limit, buccal fat and all that, I saw some mexican nigga being called a femboycel and if that guy was a femboy then I'm a tranny lmfao

 

[NirvanaFan1988]

Fight for you well deserved disability buxxxx, you really deserve it GrAYcel.
Heck even if you are not disabled, having suffered a KHHV life should be enough to be considered a disability

 

[A981]

Fight for you well deserved disability buxxxx, you really deserve it GrAYcel.
Heck even if you are not disabled, having suffered a KHHV should be enough to be considered a disability

I have a genetic flaw that makes me need quite expensive food (my food costs are about the same as those of a family of 3), so I don't know if I can make ends meet on neetbuxx alone. Hopefully I can get enough of them, because I just can't envision a future where I'm wagecucking and am happy.

Thank you, bro

 

[A981]

It is just being ugly.
A good looking man with OCD and with poor socialization is seen as quirky and cute.
This is our minds' way of coping trying to blame our characterization rather than our low scale of attractiveness in our face.

you're right, but i fear of sending my face for a rating because I'd get called a fakecel (I have a L/MTN face), and I don't want to mog anyone

 

[A981]

Ratings from other men are pointless.
It is ratings from foids that is desired.
What matters is how one is treated when going outdoors by normies.
It is when we see how we are treated is then we can get a rough estimate on where we stand in our looks.
Do not pay for any ratings or send your face to anyone here or anywhere.
Go out and watch how they treat you versus how they treat other normies.
Rinse and repeat and observe , its free to try.

the question is whether the face is fine and it's the height failo or the face is shit just like the height

 

[BornToLose]

I have OCD and drank my way through uni and some jobs and socialised cos I took to drinking like a fish takes to water, but I became an alcoholic and now I'm sober, NEET, isolated and back to square one.