From being seen as a weirdo (for me due to autism, not random laughter), having a sick parent that treated me like shit growing but I still look after him, having a mom that lied about who my father really was, enduring useless therapists, and failing at every single fucking thing I try to do (in terms of career, socializing, dating, even working out). Hundreds of applications and resumes sent. Every interview (if I'm ever called) is an awkward cringe fest, and I always fall for their fake smiles thinking that I had a chance. I'm sick of seeing the people that get ahead in life are the compulsive liars or bullies.
