Mainländer
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So I quickly met my mom coming back from work at the corner of our street and two very cute apparently 15 years old JBs approach us asking for money to their graduation party or something. I quickly said I didn't have it (normally I say "what will you give me back" in those situations, but I can't do it with my mom) but my mom reached her purse and gave them 2 bucks. Keep in mind that Brazil is a poor country and pretty much no one gives that much, people normally give some cents (or, even more frequently, nothing) in those situations.
As soon as I saw my mom reaching to her purse my heart started to pound strongly in a mix of rage, frustration, anxiety, and lust for them, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I'm still with a fast heart and steaming with rage. I thought about stopping my mom but that could very likely result in an unnecessary fight between us or me revealing my powerlevel in front of her, so I decided not to do anything. I just told her afterwards not to give money to those students who don't even need it, if you really want to give money to people do it with actual beggars who are hungry and whatnot.
God hates me. My life is a joke. I wanted to fuck a girl like that more than anything else in the world and they dare to approach me asking for fucking money, without giving anything in return. And on top of that my mom gives money to them. That same money that supports me since I'm currently unemployed.
I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING GO TO THE CORNER OF MY STREET AND BACK WITHOUT GOING THROUGH THIS SHIT. DOES GOD REALLY WANT ME TO GO ER THAT MUCH?
I just punched my closet's door and actually made a boil on it. I hope my aunt downstairs thought it was something that fell on the ground. I couldn't help it.
As soon as I saw my mom reaching to her purse my heart started to pound strongly in a mix of rage, frustration, anxiety, and lust for them, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I'm still with a fast heart and steaming with rage. I thought about stopping my mom but that could very likely result in an unnecessary fight between us or me revealing my powerlevel in front of her, so I decided not to do anything. I just told her afterwards not to give money to those students who don't even need it, if you really want to give money to people do it with actual beggars who are hungry and whatnot.
God hates me. My life is a joke. I wanted to fuck a girl like that more than anything else in the world and they dare to approach me asking for fucking money, without giving anything in return. And on top of that my mom gives money to them. That same money that supports me since I'm currently unemployed.
I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING GO TO THE CORNER OF MY STREET AND BACK WITHOUT GOING THROUGH THIS SHIT. DOES GOD REALLY WANT ME TO GO ER THAT MUCH?
I just punched my closet's door and actually made a boil on it. I hope my aunt downstairs thought it was something that fell on the ground. I couldn't help it.
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