SuicideFuel I just can't let the past go

[JustanotherKanga]

2013-2019 was probably the 'golden age' of my life.
Yea sure, I was a virgin and i'm still one, but back then I was actually enjoying life more instead of trying to 'make it through just another day'.
The atmosphere, the games I used to play, Sports I've played etc.... I really miss the old times.
I miss the old 'me' who didn't give a fuck about anything, as long as I was doing alright.
I miss the old 'me' who didn't think about the future and what it might hold, but instead lived more in the now and present.

Fuck growing up, if what I'm going through now is what is considered being an adult, then life is pure shit.
I wish I'd forever be 18 Years old, forever young and in the prime of my life.
I'm in my mid 20's, and just can't cope with the fact that I'm already 35 Years old in 10 Years from now.
I had a life when I was younger, what I have right now isn't 'life' but rather survival of the fittest.

 

[Adolf Kitler]

real

 

[fokusin]

I miss being younger because I was low inhib and didn't care what anyone thought

 

[Soystein]

The agepill is extremely brutal, I am 40 next month, it will happen to you too

 

[JustanotherKanga]

I miss being younger because I was low inhib and didn't care what anyone thought

 

[JustanotherKanga]

The agepill is extremely brutal, I am 40 next month, it will happen to you too

At least it's good to know, that I'm not the only one who feels this way.

 

[Based NaziCel]

I miss being younger because I was low inhib and didn't care what anyone thought

 

[DioptricAtol]

Time is brutal

 

[JustanotherKanga]

Time is brutal

I think the agepill will probably be the most brutal out of all of them, In my books.
It really takes a tole on you mentally. You'll feel less motivated and will often ask yourself the question:
What am I doing all of this for?
Waking up every single day to wageslave for what? Just to keep myself alive so I can buy food which will prolong the misery?
My future looks bleak and empty.
No wife, no family, no friends just nothing
Only tough MF's will be able to persevere and push through, but my mental 'toughness' also has its limits and I'm afraid it'll be gone soon.

 

[Soystein]

At least it's good to know, that I'm not the only one who feels this way.

Be glad you had good times during childhood, I had many friends growing up and it was a good time, many people on this site had 0 good times and it has wounded their souls. I would be ok with getting older if I was living a normal life with a woman and kids, but I am rotting and dying every day with nothing to show for it.

 

[DioptricAtol]

I think the agepill will probably be the most brutal out of all of them, In my books.
It really takes a tole on you mentally. You'll feel less motivated and will often ask yourself the question:
What am I doing all of this for?
Waking up every single day to wageslave for what? Just to keep myself alive so I can buy food which will prolong the misery?
My future looks bleak and empty.
No wife, no family, no friends just nothing
Only tough MF's will be able to persevere and push through, but my mental 'toughness' also has its limits and I'm afraid it'll be gone soon.

Spot on. Though listening to this helped a little bit


View: https://youtu.be/d5E2AQKuCyU


Kinda still skeptic about this since he was a literal emperor and had a wife.

 

[BetterOffDeceased]

I can relate to this so hard. I have squandered so much of my time, was far happier when I was of a tender age. The agepill is brutal. My already pitiful appearance is going to decline rapidly.

 

[JustanotherKanga]

Be glad you had good times during childhood, I had many friends growing up and it was a good time, many people on this site had 0 good times and it has wounded their souls. I would be ok with getting older if I was living a normal life with a woman and kids, but I am rotting and dying every day with nothing to show for it.

I've been through foster care since 8yo so also had trauma

 

[avoidthefoid2]

2013-2019 was probably the 'golden age' of my life.
Yea sure, I was a virgin and i'm still one, but back then I was actually enjoying life more instead of trying to 'make it through just another day'.
The atmosphere, the games I used to play, Sports I've played etc.... I really miss the old times.
I miss the old 'me' who didn't give a fuck about anything, as long as I was doing alright.
I miss the old 'me' who didn't think about the future and what it might hold, but instead lived more in the now and present.

Fuck growing up, if what I'm going through now is what is considered being an adult, then life is pure shit.
I wish I'd forever be 18 Years old, forever young and in the prime of my life.
I'm in my mid 20's, and just can't cope with the fact that I'm already 35 Years old in 10 Years from now.
I had a life when I was younger, what I have right now isn't 'life' but rather survival of the fittest.

I'm in your shoes bro
use your 20's well or you'll finish like me, a 35 yo loser

 

[umsure]

It’s because there was hope back then

There is no hope once you’re older

Once the train starts moving, it doesn’t stop

- khhv 26

 

[justuseless]

I feel you. It sucks when the realisation hits that your life will go nowhere. You're potential will always be inhibited by inceldom.

 

[JustanotherKanga]

I'm in your shoes bro
use your 20's well or you'll finish like me, a 35 yo loser

Well thanks for your tip, how should I use my 20s? I can't improve my dating life? It's non-existent

 

[avoidthefoid2]

Well thanks for your tip, how should I use my 20s? I can't improve my dating life? It's non-existent

build a career. what are you good at? what are your inclinations? you most build a career in your 20's