I destroyed it because it already went rancid on me despite my efforts to clean it, and it got dirty very easily due to the material it was made of. The vagina was alright and I guess I got a few decent bangs in but at the end of the day it was cold, dead weight. It cannot fully replicate the warmth of a real woman, and quite frankly the amount of nuts I was busting was severely draining my energy.
If I want to extract any pleasure out of life, I plan on going the long term route by increasing my dopamine sensitivity again. Part of me regrets destroying the doll because I destroyed my only form of pussy, but at the same time it was nothing life changing when I had it. I had nowhere to store it and I don’t live alone so it seemed like too much of a hassle for me.
I just want to regain control of myself. Even if I spend my life alone, I want to try to live like a monk, by removing all cheap sources of dopamine that will only make me suffer more. Since I haven’t masturbated in 5 days now, I’ve had a bit more energy to do errands without feeling like a zombified husk walking around the store.
And even if I do eventually give in and coom, my orgasm would be much more pleasurable from how long I waited, since if you masturbate multiple times per day, you’re no different than a drug addict needing a stronger and stronger dose, until you feel completely dead inside no matter how furiously you partake in the act.
If I release my life giving essence into nothingness, I am letting the temptation of foids win. The entire reason they have taken over the world in the first place is because men give up their vital essence for cheap sexual pleasure, and women take advantage of this. In a world where all men have self discipline, foids wouldn’t have the upper hand.
I am sick and tired of giving in to a temptation for foids who don’t give a flying fuck about me. They only lust for Chad, but all men lust for them. See how cucked that sounds?
If normies all collectively simp for foids in this hyper sexualized society, I will not. They are not above us, they don’t deserve our validation or any of our energy. I will use my pent up sexual frustration to get as far away from women as I possibly can. This is my goal in life, to be far away from these filthy whores who have done nothing but cause me anguish.
If I want to extract any pleasure out of life, I plan on going the long term route by increasing my dopamine sensitivity again. Part of me regrets destroying the doll because I destroyed my only form of pussy, but at the same time it was nothing life changing when I had it. I had nowhere to store it and I don’t live alone so it seemed like too much of a hassle for me.
I just want to regain control of myself. Even if I spend my life alone, I want to try to live like a monk, by removing all cheap sources of dopamine that will only make me suffer more. Since I haven’t masturbated in 5 days now, I’ve had a bit more energy to do errands without feeling like a zombified husk walking around the store.
And even if I do eventually give in and coom, my orgasm would be much more pleasurable from how long I waited, since if you masturbate multiple times per day, you’re no different than a drug addict needing a stronger and stronger dose, until you feel completely dead inside no matter how furiously you partake in the act.
If I release my life giving essence into nothingness, I am letting the temptation of foids win. The entire reason they have taken over the world in the first place is because men give up their vital essence for cheap sexual pleasure, and women take advantage of this. In a world where all men have self discipline, foids wouldn’t have the upper hand.
I am sick and tired of giving in to a temptation for foids who don’t give a flying fuck about me. They only lust for Chad, but all men lust for them. See how cucked that sounds?
If normies all collectively simp for foids in this hyper sexualized society, I will not. They are not above us, they don’t deserve our validation or any of our energy. I will use my pent up sexual frustration to get as far away from women as I possibly can. This is my goal in life, to be far away from these filthy whores who have done nothing but cause me anguish.
