I hate everyone better than me.
- Dec 3, 2020
- 118d 22h 59m
"June twenty-ninth. I gotta get in shape. Too much sitting has ruined my body. Too much abuse has gone on for too long. From now on there will be 50 pushups each morning, 50 pullups. There will be no more pills, no more bad food, no more destroyers of my body. From now on will be total organization. Every muscle must be tight." Travis Bickle, Taxi Driver (1976)
It's obvious that life is cruel and unfair. I was born short, ugly, autistic, (possibly) low IQ, and from a not-rich family. I realized that in life you only have two options to be happy:
- Live life the way you want to live it.
- Kill yourself.
This quote basically means that if you want to change something about yourself, the best time to start is right now."The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now." - Chinese Proverb
Are you just living day to day? Are you lost and confused? "I want to feel alive!" It's easy. You can't think about the past. "Why did I do that?" It'll just turn to anger. You also can't think about the future. "Will it be okay?" It just turns to worry. In that case... Hold on for dear life! Stake your entire life in here and now. Yes! If you stake your life now... Everyone... You will be ALIVE!
“You are too concerned with what was and what will be. There's a saying: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”
So, I decided to live my life the way I want to live it. Improve aspects I hate, at my own pace. If I cross the street tomorrow and get ran over by truck-kun, so be it.
There was also this:
I'm too lazy to find the timestamp but he mentioned to try to make everyday 1% better than the last or some shit.
It's only been a couple of days and I gave myself some easy goals to start off with:
- Stopped watching porn. It's degenerate and unhealthy. If I ever feel the urge to coom, I shall use my imagination or simply resist.
- Stopped lurking IT. Last time, they were all being hateful towards me about quitting my job, despite them knowing nothing about me. They are merely paparazzi and I'm the fucking celebrity. I will no longer be giving these losers attention.
TLDR; The title.