I have fantasies about biting into my arms and eating my own flesh and blood, unfortunately the human body is inferior and if I did something like that it would result in permanent damage
Anyway am just thinking about how dangerous and scary this world is tonight, even if I wasn’t a miserable incel I think about all the horrors in the world and all I’ll have to endure in the future.
Even if I was just a average looking dude and had a car and respectable career I Just think about a lot of stuff like
>constant financial problems
>having to worry about driving and getting in a crash that will result in permanent disability, shit is so terrifying to me, like I imagine that at some point in life I’ll have to drive in a fucking thunderstorm at night or something
>having to worry about getting attacked and knocked out or beaten by thugmaxxed normies degenerates
>having to worry about loosing my parents as they age
>having to worry about getting sent to prison over something and having to fight against roided out savages with a zero percent chance of Winning
You can call my a pussy but I’d rather just die with it being under my control and not a random set of unfortunate happenings and circumstances in the future.
I want to become a hunter form left 4 dead, like I want to become super fast and agile and tape knives and razors to my finger tips and just hide out in the woods.
Are most people even tough? Or do they just use drugs and booze to cope?
Like I watched a documentary about verdun and a French solider said that they would only get wine and not water because they wanted them to be drunk so that they’ll have less fear when charging German trenches
Anyway I don’t know maybe am just failing at becoming a adult and what not but still.
Anyway while people my age (22) fantasize about their perfect careers and relationships am over here thinking about becoming a left 4 dead hunter and committing suicide via cop
I honestly don’t think I even deserve a girlfriend at all, I’ve done nothing more but waste time and even if I was a normie and not a ugly fucker it would still be ovER
I’d probably creep her out in two seconds anyway lol and as cucked as it might sound, I wouldn’t blame her and honestly I don’t blame foids for not liking me. But still why the fuck do they have to glare at me?? Like what the fuck is that all about?
Anyway I guess nothing ever changes, it’s not a bad life I just got a lot of problems and am afraid that my life will be a thousand times worse in the future, that’s my main problem rn
Shit
It’s 12:22 AM right now, probably going to go jerk off in the shower because I can’t stop thinking about sex and then go to bed after.
Anyway am just thinking about how dangerous and scary this world is tonight, even if I wasn’t a miserable incel I think about all the horrors in the world and all I’ll have to endure in the future.
Even if I was just a average looking dude and had a car and respectable career I Just think about a lot of stuff like
>constant financial problems
>having to worry about driving and getting in a crash that will result in permanent disability, shit is so terrifying to me, like I imagine that at some point in life I’ll have to drive in a fucking thunderstorm at night or something
>having to worry about getting attacked and knocked out or beaten by thugmaxxed normies degenerates
>having to worry about loosing my parents as they age
>having to worry about getting sent to prison over something and having to fight against roided out savages with a zero percent chance of Winning
You can call my a pussy but I’d rather just die with it being under my control and not a random set of unfortunate happenings and circumstances in the future.
I want to become a hunter form left 4 dead, like I want to become super fast and agile and tape knives and razors to my finger tips and just hide out in the woods.
Are most people even tough? Or do they just use drugs and booze to cope?
Like I watched a documentary about verdun and a French solider said that they would only get wine and not water because they wanted them to be drunk so that they’ll have less fear when charging German trenches
Anyway I don’t know maybe am just failing at becoming a adult and what not but still.
Anyway while people my age (22) fantasize about their perfect careers and relationships am over here thinking about becoming a left 4 dead hunter and committing suicide via cop
I honestly don’t think I even deserve a girlfriend at all, I’ve done nothing more but waste time and even if I was a normie and not a ugly fucker it would still be ovER
I’d probably creep her out in two seconds anyway lol and as cucked as it might sound, I wouldn’t blame her and honestly I don’t blame foids for not liking me. But still why the fuck do they have to glare at me?? Like what the fuck is that all about?
Anyway I guess nothing ever changes, it’s not a bad life I just got a lot of problems and am afraid that my life will be a thousand times worse in the future, that’s my main problem rn
Shit
It’s 12:22 AM right now, probably going to go jerk off in the shower because I can’t stop thinking about sex and then go to bed after.
