It's Over I have autism without a doubt

[Darth Aquarius]

View: https://youtu.be/aRWa5czw8OY?si=L5UF80m1P_WWFbPT


I used to be addicted to this song when I was 11. Not only that, but I had a massive crush on this girl who lived on my street and I would always play outside with her brother in front of their house and she was often there, so I constantly went outside in an attempt to try and see her.

The song comes into play because I would imagine myself on stage performing the song in a tuxedo in front of my whole school with her in the crowd watching. I was a very happy kid at the time because of how euphoric I felt having a crush for the first time. She never rejected me because I never aksed her out because we were just kids realistically, but it was such a pure and innocent feeling to have, nothing like lusting after a foid in your teens or adult years.

Eventually the crush faded and I didn’t have another crush until 7th grade, and this time I confessed to this girl my feelings and she started hiding from me behind her friends whenever she saw me because she thought I was weird (brutal), and then finally my last and truest love was my oneitis who rejected me (keep in mind I didn’t like her for years before while I was crushing on those other girls, I didn’t fall in love with her until I was 13 years old. I loved her the hardest so the rejection fucked me up in the head to this day.

With every crush I kept imagining myself in a scenario where I would be performing a song for the girl in question to win her approval somehow. It’s one of my autistic fantasies and I know I would make a fool of myself if I actually tried doing that for real, like this poor kid right here:

View: https://youtu.be/i8CdEWbt8mo?si=E9UxSvDKyv2d2UVN

 

[Grodd]

If you suspect you have autism you likely do

 

[Darth Aquarius]

If you suspect you have autism you likely do

It would explain my emotional sensitivity, head banging, pacing, hand flapping as a kid, and the obsession I had with my oneitis (she became my special interest it seems). Not to mention being unable to relate to any kids my age but having full blown conversations with the elderly and them being shocked by how well I can form my thoughts (even when I was like 9)

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

If you suspect you have autism you likely do

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

View: https://youtu.be/i8CdEWbt8mo?si=E9UxSvDKyv2d2UVN

Brutal

 

[brutalist]

Its just ugliness coupled with heightened self awareness from a young age that causes weird traits/interests.

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Brutal

Lmao this kid needs an account here, we will accept him with open arms.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Pure and innocent childhood crushes are brutal — I used to have one as a kid, and fantasized about her similarly to you. They give you hope, a glimpse of warmth, but also teach you how deep the loneliness can cut when it fades or is rejected. It's crazy to think that I have been dreaming of love and affection for so long already, and it will never come

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Pure and innocent childhood crushes are brutal — I used to have one as a kid, and fantasized about her similarly to you. They give you hope, a glimpse of warmth, but also teach you how deep the loneliness can cut when it fades or is rejected. It's crazy to think that I have been dreaming of love and affection for so long already, and it will never come

True. Lust is one thing but that innocent love and unexplained bursts of energy and happiness you get from a childhood crush is a euphoria that no drugs can create. It’s something only possible in childhood until you grow up and the world extinguishes the innocence of your heart.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I used to be addicted to this song when I was 11

Personally, I was addicted to this one. It's such a classic :


View: https://youtu.be/X_XGxzMrq04?si=kFpUn3Qo8RHMDTav

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

True. Lust is one thing but that innocent love and unexplained bursts of energy and happiness you get from a childhood crush is a euphoria that no drugs can create. It’s something only possible in childhood until you grow up and the world extinguishes the innocence of your heart.

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Personally, I was addicted to this one. It's such a classic :


View: https://youtu.be/X_XGxzMrq04?si=kFpUn3Qo8RHMDTav

I remember jumping up and down on the couch to this song as a kid jfl

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I remember jumping up and down on the couch to this song as a kid jfl

Good old days

 

[zd60]

i'm kinda glad I never really had a chance to experience any childhood crushes

 

[Darth Aquarius]

Good old days

View: https://youtu.be/NCMJnTBZfeE?si=iLwP8r7X7GC16rVC


It’s a cloudy fall day, you are 11 years old listening to this song and thinking of your childhood crush as your heart races, you love life. You ride your scooter up and down the street hoping to see her, all is right in the world. You don’t know it’s over, you’re consciousness hasn’t been corrupted yet.

 

[Darth Aquarius]

i'm kinda glad I never really had a chance to experience any childhood crushes

Picture it as experiencing a taste of something beautiful that you come to find out you will never have.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

View: https://youtu.be/NCMJnTBZfeE?si=iLwP8r7X7GC16rVC


It’s a cloudy fall day, you are 11 years old listening to this song and thinking of your childhood crush as your heart races, you love life. You ride your scooter up and down the street hoping to see her, all is right in the world. You don’t know it’s over, you’re consciousness hasn’t been corrupted yet.

I wish I could return to these days of blissful ignorance

 

[Adolf Kitler]

 

[zd60]

Picture it as experiencing a taste of something beautiful that you come to find out you will never have.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

View: https://youtu.be/NCMJnTBZfeE?si=iLwP8r7X7GC16rVC


It’s a cloudy fall day, you are 11 years old listening to this song and thinking of your childhood crush as your heart races, you love life. You ride your scooter up and down the street hoping to see her, all is right in the world. You don’t know it’s over, you’re consciousness hasn’t been corrupted yet.

This cruel world has ruined us

 

[Darth Aquarius]

This cruel world has ruined us

I blame my aunt for inviting her drunken friend over for every birthday party my little cousins ever had, because they would bring their daughters and one of those daughters was the oneitis that changed everything for me.

 

[BornToLose]

 

[HONKLERedux]

View: https://youtu.be/k2rDbRUDkds?si=QduvFQ_3bQfndl3e

 

[sub5chud]

View: https://youtu.be/aRWa5czw8OY?si=L5UF80m1P_WWFbPT


I used to be addicted to this song when I was 11. Not only that, but I had a massive crush on this girl who lived on my street and I would always play outside with her brother in front of their house and she was often there, so I constantly went outside in an attempt to try and see her.

The song comes into play because I would imagine myself on stage performing the song in a tuxedo in front of my whole school with her in the crowd watching. I was a very happy kid at the time because of how euphoric I felt having a crush for the first time. She never rejected me because I never aksed her out because we were just kids realistically, but it was such a pure and innocent feeling to have, nothing like lusting after a foid in your teens or adult years.

Eventually the crush faded and I didn’t have another crush until 7th grade, and this time I confessed to this girl my feelings and she started hiding from me behind her friends whenever she saw me because she thought I was weird (brutal), and then finally my last and truest love was my oneitis who rejected me (keep in mind I didn’t like her for years before while I was crushing on those other girls, I didn’t fall in love with her until I was 13 years old. I loved her the hardest so the rejection fucked me up in the head to this day.

With every crush I kept imagining myself in a scenario where I would be performing a song for the girl in question to win her approval somehow. It’s one of my autistic fantasies and I know I would make a fool of myself if I actually tried doing that for real, like this poor kid right here:

View: https://youtu.be/i8CdEWbt8mo?si=E9UxSvDKyv2d2UVN

I think everyone wanted to do that I used to imagine going to a school play and playing guitar really good

 

[Darth Aquarius]

I think everyone wanted to do that I used to imagine going to a school play and playing guitar really good

Joker moment, wanting to be in the spotlight but instead ending up in a place like this with nothing.