OmniVoid
Veteran
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- Joined
- Mar 26, 2019
- Posts
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I looked in a large mirror today and was reminded of how subhuman I am. I'm absolutely defeated. Living like this is unbearable. There really is no hope. I just want to die.
My subhumanity is also confirmed by the fact that I'm treated like shit, recieve no female validation, am ignored, and looked down on. It's hard to describe what defeat feels like. Worst part is, no one will ever sympathize because we're ugly. Nothing I ever do will make up for the fact that I'm absolutely flawed.
It isn't possible for me to live this life. At this point, I have nothing to lose and have accepted that I will die young. Before, I was always afraid of dying in certain ways and not by my own hand but now I just want to die somehow.
I deluded myself into believing I was somewhat attractive and could get someone, however my daily life disproves my delusions. The girl I am pursuing takes forever to respond. She is obviously not interested and never was.
Well guys, I guess you will get it finally. I have enough money in my savings for a gun, I just have to find where to get it. Also, I need some advice on the platform I should use.
This is what defeat and the acceptance of defeat looks like. I'm over it.
My subhumanity is also confirmed by the fact that I'm treated like shit, recieve no female validation, am ignored, and looked down on. It's hard to describe what defeat feels like. Worst part is, no one will ever sympathize because we're ugly. Nothing I ever do will make up for the fact that I'm absolutely flawed.
It isn't possible for me to live this life. At this point, I have nothing to lose and have accepted that I will die young. Before, I was always afraid of dying in certain ways and not by my own hand but now I just want to die somehow.
I deluded myself into believing I was somewhat attractive and could get someone, however my daily life disproves my delusions. The girl I am pursuing takes forever to respond. She is obviously not interested and never was.
Well guys, I guess you will get it finally. I have enough money in my savings for a gun, I just have to find where to get it. Also, I need some advice on the platform I should use.
This is what defeat and the acceptance of defeat looks like. I'm over it.