Lately, I've become very unstable. Everyday I feel like punching holes in my wall. Smashing my laptop. Breaking the bones of the people that gossip about me. I sometimes shed tears alone at 3 AM, with nothing but the PlayStation 4 dashboard music in the background. I even talk to myself and say how lonely I am.
In the past three months, my best friend abandoned me, my other friend doesn't find me interesting to talk to, and now, as of recently, a close friend doesn't even care anymore. One day these people love me, the next they begin to dislike me, then they hate me.
I get so attached, but eventually everyone leaves me behind. I'm starting to think friendship isn't real.
Not only do friends leave, but the entire world TREATS ME LIKE #### I AM SO PISSED OFF AND I AM BOILING WITH RAGE. THIS IS A CRIME AGAINST JUSTICE. I DO NOT DESERVE THIS. ALWAYS GETTING FIRED FROM JOBS, BEING REJECTED BY SOCIETY, AND CLOSE FRIENDS LEAVING ME. I HATE THE JEWS THAT GAVE ME AUTISM AND MY DISABILITY THAT MAKES ME RANDOMLY LOSE CONSCIOUSNESS.
I'm such a nice guy, I have various interesting hobbies, statistically I am physically stronger than 90% of men, I speak multiple languages and I have so much to talk about. I'm an intelligent gentleman.
Now my only hope is winning the lottery. If I did I would buy property and increase the rent for sex havers and single mothers. I would travel away from Europe and try to move to Japan where I would be average height, wouldn't be so brutally mogged, and I would be respected far more.
"A beautiful environment is the darkest hell if you have to experience it all alone." - Elliot Rodger
In the past three months, my best friend abandoned me, my other friend doesn't find me interesting to talk to, and now, as of recently, a close friend doesn't even care anymore. One day these people love me, the next they begin to dislike me, then they hate me.
I get so attached, but eventually everyone leaves me behind. I'm starting to think friendship isn't real.
Not only do friends leave, but the entire world TREATS ME LIKE #### I AM SO PISSED OFF AND I AM BOILING WITH RAGE. THIS IS A CRIME AGAINST JUSTICE. I DO NOT DESERVE THIS. ALWAYS GETTING FIRED FROM JOBS, BEING REJECTED BY SOCIETY, AND CLOSE FRIENDS LEAVING ME. I HATE THE JEWS THAT GAVE ME AUTISM AND MY DISABILITY THAT MAKES ME RANDOMLY LOSE CONSCIOUSNESS.
I'm such a nice guy, I have various interesting hobbies, statistically I am physically stronger than 90% of men, I speak multiple languages and I have so much to talk about. I'm an intelligent gentleman.
Now my only hope is winning the lottery. If I did I would buy property and increase the rent for sex havers and single mothers. I would travel away from Europe and try to move to Japan where I would be average height, wouldn't be so brutally mogged, and I would be respected far more.
"A beautiful environment is the darkest hell if you have to experience it all alone." - Elliot Rodger
