Incels.is - Involuntary Celibate

As the title says, i hate myself so much. I wish that i could just die in my sleep.
-I will never be NT
-I will never be loved by foids
-I will always be alone by myself
-I will never feel content with myself or my appearance
-I am not smart at all.
And lastly i will never be white.
I also humilate myself by writing "Dirty Nigger" on a piece of paper and putting it on top of my head and taking a picture of it. I wish people hated me as much as i hate myself. I will always be a subhuman piece of shit not worthy for anything.
For those reasons alone i hate myself more than anything, and wish that i was never born.