I think your online name is pretty cool! I was considering Nill Kiggers myself (FBI can suck it if they can't take a joke).
The subject of 'fault' is two-way. Those who shit on you and you've done nothing wrong to them, avoid those people like the plague that they are if possible. If only a few people treat you with respect, be grateful for them and show them respect in turn.
If the women issues are particularly getting you down and you're a virgin or have very limited experience, I'd save up some money to go on a 'sex trip' where prostitution is legally accessible and get it all out of your system. You'll be surprised by the level of perspective it can provide a man. To know that no woman you encounter can force you to be a virgin or inexperienced or to know that you've had BETTER than what the bitch in front of you could give.
If noone loves you at this very moment, love yourself. You have no power to directly dictate other people's love anyway, but you can always choose to love yourself. By the way, I'm not talking romantic love. That shit doesn't exist. No woman loves any man. They only desire what a man can provide, but know they need to seduce men in order to get what they want. So fuck what they think of anyone.