When I was in my teens or 20's I saw some American tv-series or movie where a young girl was angrily ranting about how she hates being seen as the 'good girl'. I don't remember the specifics but it was something about her being mad about being boxed into this category of the timid, submissive, kind and obedient girl who does not care about having fun. That show may be very dated now (could have been 80's) but the message stuck with me.
I was raised to be a nice person and I am quite empathetic. However I sometimes feel disgusted at the fact that I have to jut my neck out and make a good impression with my acts and speech because my looks won't convince people and especially foids to assume nice things about me. After the first few thousand times of being thanked for your time, listening skills and what not it just gets stale. It feels gross using my hard earned skills to make a good impression and make myself inoffensive and make a positive impression on foids even if it costs me minimal energy nowadays. I guess that when you look a certain way you are expected to be submissive on some level but you still get dirty looks because you have to be the right balance of soy flavor and I think I'm on my way to being the master chef.
Now don't get me wrong; I will never want to stop being a 'good' person and I don't fantasize about being a dick to people but it would be nice to do it once or twice knowing it would not hurt them. As a chad every messed up act of mine could be rationalized as confidence and having a strong character.
I was raised to be a nice person and I am quite empathetic. However I sometimes feel disgusted at the fact that I have to jut my neck out and make a good impression with my acts and speech because my looks won't convince people and especially foids to assume nice things about me. After the first few thousand times of being thanked for your time, listening skills and what not it just gets stale. It feels gross using my hard earned skills to make a good impression and make myself inoffensive and make a positive impression on foids even if it costs me minimal energy nowadays. I guess that when you look a certain way you are expected to be submissive on some level but you still get dirty looks because you have to be the right balance of soy flavor and I think I'm on my way to being the master chef.
Now don't get me wrong; I will never want to stop being a 'good' person and I don't fantasize about being a dick to people but it would be nice to do it once or twice knowing it would not hurt them. As a chad every messed up act of mine could be rationalized as confidence and having a strong character.
