SuicideFuel I hate being autistic retard nigger

[curryboy420]

I can't sleep nowadays at all because little things keep annoying me like noises from outside that everyone else can sleep through or ignore but I can't so I wake up even after just an hour of sleep and stay awake fully.

Today I couldn't take it in my aunt's house anymore so I came to my other aunt's house in India and she has a power inverter to keep the power on at night, and it makes this annoying ass high pitch electrical noise that seems that nobody else can hear but it gives me a headache. I did research and everyone says theyr autistic and can hear electrical noises. But I'm not autistic and I still hear it. So I must be extra autistic so that even the doctors think there's something more wrong with me and they didn't give me my autism diagnosis so people would take me seriously and I could get help from the govt and shit. Instead I have to just suffer. Fuck this shit
I seriously want to just kill myself I am not made for this world at all.

 

[VintageCarCoper]

My sleep is also brutal. I hate how awful it feels to sleep 4-5 hours, have your body wake you up, and not fall back to sleep

 

[curryboy420]

My sleep is also brutal. I hate how awful it feels to sleep 4-5 hours, have your body wake you up, and not fall back to sleep

I gonna ask my mum for those Indian benzo pills and see if they can help me. I know not to get addicted to them but I kind of have to try something here. Otherwise who knows how much alzheimerrs I am giving myself by staying awake so long for so many days now. I had sleep issues since I was 12 or 13 and now I'm 27 and it's still like this and nobody I know has stayed awake so late and shit like I do. I always used to be awake until 9am or 10am and nowadays I just can't even sleep even then. I get angry a lot now when I can't sleep and I figure if I do spaz out badly and do criminal stuff maybe they will put me in mental hospital hopefully and I can get some good medicine there to tranquilize me because they don't give tranquilizers normally

 

[VintageCarCoper]

I gonna ask my mum for those Indian benzo pills and see if they can help me. I know not to get addicted to them but I kind of have to try something here. Otherwise who knows how much alzheimerrs I am giving myself by staying awake so long for so many days now. I had sleep issues since I was 12 or 13 and now I'm 27 and it's still like this and nobody I know has stayed awake so late and shit like I do. I always used to be awake until 9am or 10am and nowadays I just can't even sleep even then. I get angry a lot now when I can't sleep and I figure if I do spaz out badly and do criminal stuff maybe they will put me in mental hospital hopefully and I can get some good medicine there to tranquilize me because they don't give tranquilizers normally

Yesterday, I went to sleep at 9:30 am and woke up at 2 P.M., so I know how rotten sleep deprivation is. It’s gonna kill us earlier and rot out brains more than inceldom already is.

My doctor is supposed to give me decent sleeping pills (legal ones), so we will see if that helps. Although I really wish I could try hardcore sleeping pills like Xanax. Brutal we suffer with lack of sleep on top of everything else

 

[curryboy420]

Yesterday, I went to sleep at 9:30 am and woke up at 2 P.M., so I know how rotten sleep deprivation is. It’s gonna kill us earlier and rot out brains more than inceldom already is.

My doctor is supposed to give me decent sleeping pills (legal ones), so we will see if that helps. Although I really wish I could try hardcore sleeping pills like Xanax. Brutal we suffer with lack of sleep on top of everything else

I went to sleep 3.330 and woke up a 7 am and I got really angry and shouted a lot then I packed my stuff and came to my other aunt's house and now it's 5am and I don't feel sleepy in my mind still anymore and I just feel like it's over man . I feel so tired in body but I can never sleep in my mind. I must have a problem that isn't too common. I heard of fatal familial insomnia but I don't think it's that. Maybe something laterally related to that

 

[VintageCarCoper]

I went to sleep 3.330 and woke up a 7 am and I got really angry and shouted a lot then I packed my stuff and came to my other aunt's house and now it's 5am and I don't feel sleepy in my mind still anymore and I just feel like it's over man . I feel so tired in body but I can never sleep in my mind. I must have a problem that isn't too common. I heard of fatal familial insomnia but I don't think it's that. Maybe something laterally related to that

Brutal. I often have similar sleep struggles, and I think it’s a combo of my health issues and the loneliness and dissatisfaction with life. Hard to fall asleep when you can’t stop imagining scenarios in your head where you have a gf and sex

 

[curryboy420]

Brutal. I often have similar sleep struggles, and I think it’s a combo of my health issues and the loneliness and dissatisfaction with life. Hard to fall asleep when you can’t stop imagining scenarios in your head where you have a gf and sex

I used to fal asleep to imagining scenarios like winning in life but now my imagination is so dull and dim it doesn't work nymore I am gonna go for an MRI scan I think when I go back to Mumbai and specifically ask to see if my cerebellum is normal because it says that people with the gene that causes fatal familial insomnia can have reduced cerebellum and hopefully the doctor is smart and can see for sure. And maybe I go for 2 scans. Maybe I can ask in England for a NHS scan if the Indian guy suspects anything. Genetic testing could tell me as well

I always worried I might have a real problem but I never like to do medical stuff ubless you're dying for real. But this is like a very slow death at this point but then life is also a slow death. I don't know what to do .

 

[VintageCarCoper]

I used to fal asleep to imagining scenarios like winning in life but now my imagination is so dull and dim it doesn't work nymore I am gonna go for an MRI scan I think when I go back to Mumbai and specifically ask to see if my cerebellum is normal because it says that people with the gene that causes fatal familial insomnia can have reduced cerebellum and hopefully the doctor is smart and can see for sure. And maybe I go for 2 scans. Maybe I can ask in England for a NHS scan if the Indian guy suspects anything. Genetic testing could tell me as well

I always worried I might have a real problem but I never like to do medical stuff ubless you're dying for real. But this is like a very slow death at this point but then life is also a slow death. I don't know what to do .

Yeah, and if it isn’t any medical condition, it could be caused by your life circumstances in general. Being deprived of love and sex combined with any other adverse circumstances increases cortisol and decreases serotonin. Cortisol is a stress hormone and makes it harder to sleep. Plus it wears you out faster. And lacking serotonin (which you will pack when deprived of love and sex which are basic needs), you also produce less melatonin, which is the sleep hormone

 

[curryboy420]

Yeah, and if it isn’t any medical condition, it could be caused by your life circumstances in general. Being deprived of love and sex combined with any other adverse circumstances increases cortisol and decreases serotonin. Cortisol is a stress hormone and makes it harder to sleep. Plus it wears you out faster. And lacking serotonin (which you will pack when deprived of love and sex which are basic needs), you also produce less melatonin, which is the sleep hormone

I used to do mentalotonin pills but then they stopped working so I haven't used them for years now, I wonder what my problem is, I have cortisol but so does soldiers in war zones and they sleep, and I have low sereotorning love thing but I know lots of people who have no people who love them and they manage to sleep every day

 

[VintageCarCoper]

I used to do mentalotonin pills but then they stopped working so I haven't used them for years now, I wonder what my problem is, I have cortisol but so does soldiers in war zones and they sleep, and I have low sereotorning love thing but I know lots of people who have no people who love them and they manage to sleep every day

We just lost the genetic lottery for sleep. @Animecel2D is a KHHV incel and still sleeps 8-9 hours straight. It’s much up to genetics

 

[curryboy420]

We just lost the genetic lottery for sleep. @Animecel2D is a KHHV incel and still sleeps 8-9 hours straight. It’s much up to genetics

Sleep is le petit mort, death is le grand mort, when I die it will be peace and over. I can't wait

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Sleep is le petit mort, death is le grand mort, when I die it will be peace and over. I can't wait

Death is true peace in the sense that all suffering ends