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Ok, this is my first venting topic so I'm going to try and let it out. Here goes....
I fucking hate how fickle and complicated people are, I hate that I always have to fucking initiate conversation with people but no one ever wants to do so with me, whether I'm looking for friends, trying to maintain a friendship or trying to get with a woman. It's always the fucking same shit!
Here's an example I had a friend I knew back in Middle School, we were great pals, we loved video games,anime,manga etc. lots of the same hobbies. We BOTH reached out to each other, sometimes he would call my house first and vice versa, Fast forward to High School and suddenly I'm the one that needs to keep calling, I didn't mind at first, but as time went on it was beginning to bug me. I remained silent about it for sometime that was until he got a GF, he would always reach out to her, but not to me or any of our mutual friends for that matter. I then stopped reaching out to him all together, weeks,then months would pass by and I hear nothing from him. It was really beginning to bug me. I then just deleted him off of PSN and one of our mutual friends asked me how come I removed my friend from PSN, I told our mutual friend why and our mutual friend told me to talk to him about it. So I did, I asked him how come he never reaches out, he said he's mostly talking to everyone via Skype or Text, and sees that calling via phone is useless. So I gave him my cell number and he gave me his. Guess what? Same result. He never texts unless I text first and even now I haven't heard from him since January since it was my Birthday.
Case in point I always have to initiate, I always have to do the footwork in trying to maintain the friendship between us, so I ultimately gave up.
Now apply this to many other people I try and befriend or maintain a friendship with, and even online sites such as Maiotaku I left recently. I ALWAYS have to reach out, no one EVER reaches out to me. That makes me feel so insignificant. So I'm alone like 99% of the time. Sure I do have another friend who would reach out to me, but truth be told he hasn't been reaching out to me recently,plus this same friend walked out on me 4 times already due to differences in opinions of religion and the like. I won't be surprised if he does it again. Plus he keeps rambling on about flat Earth,the moonlanding being fake and other conspiracy bullshit and lacks the civility to respect my opinions. So I kind of don't talk to him as much.
Case in point people suck, they're too fickle,complicated and unpredictable. I HATE people! Ugh!
Rant over.
I fucking hate how fickle and complicated people are, I hate that I always have to fucking initiate conversation with people but no one ever wants to do so with me, whether I'm looking for friends, trying to maintain a friendship or trying to get with a woman. It's always the fucking same shit!
Here's an example I had a friend I knew back in Middle School, we were great pals, we loved video games,anime,manga etc. lots of the same hobbies. We BOTH reached out to each other, sometimes he would call my house first and vice versa, Fast forward to High School and suddenly I'm the one that needs to keep calling, I didn't mind at first, but as time went on it was beginning to bug me. I remained silent about it for sometime that was until he got a GF, he would always reach out to her, but not to me or any of our mutual friends for that matter. I then stopped reaching out to him all together, weeks,then months would pass by and I hear nothing from him. It was really beginning to bug me. I then just deleted him off of PSN and one of our mutual friends asked me how come I removed my friend from PSN, I told our mutual friend why and our mutual friend told me to talk to him about it. So I did, I asked him how come he never reaches out, he said he's mostly talking to everyone via Skype or Text, and sees that calling via phone is useless. So I gave him my cell number and he gave me his. Guess what? Same result. He never texts unless I text first and even now I haven't heard from him since January since it was my Birthday.
Case in point I always have to initiate, I always have to do the footwork in trying to maintain the friendship between us, so I ultimately gave up.
Now apply this to many other people I try and befriend or maintain a friendship with, and even online sites such as Maiotaku I left recently. I ALWAYS have to reach out, no one EVER reaches out to me. That makes me feel so insignificant. So I'm alone like 99% of the time. Sure I do have another friend who would reach out to me, but truth be told he hasn't been reaching out to me recently,plus this same friend walked out on me 4 times already due to differences in opinions of religion and the like. I won't be surprised if he does it again. Plus he keeps rambling on about flat Earth,the moonlanding being fake and other conspiracy bullshit and lacks the civility to respect my opinions. So I kind of don't talk to him as much.
Case in point people suck, they're too fickle,complicated and unpredictable. I HATE people! Ugh!
Rant over.
