I have to wake up every single fucking day and hear my mother complain nonstop about every little fucking thing. There is no order in my household, no peace. It seems my luck is always terrible, I’m always in a shitty mood, and I’m put into a shitty mood because all I hear my mother do is bitch, which rubs off on me and makes me feel like we’re fucked financially, in the short term and long term.
If I don’t wagesalve with my dad who walked out on me when I was a kid then I won’t be able to pay for my car insurance, and any time I can manage to buy gas or household necessities there’s no feeling of relief or accomplishment that I got something done, because again my mother keeps bitching. I can’t fucking stand the fact that my mother turned me into an emotional, weak, lazy piece of shit due to me not having my fucking father in the house because the fucking retard abandoned me.
Then somehow when no one was there to teach me how to be an adult in my childhood, it’s suddenly my fucking fault that I don’t want to work, and I can’t mentally function without having anxiety issues. I care about my mother because she raised me, fed me, and never abused me, but for the simple fact that she is a woman every time she gets in a shitty, nagging mood it drives me up a fucking wall. Fuck the girl who rejected me when I was 14 as well, she was once someone I deeply cared for but 7 years later I understand that she’s become a fat, ugly, disgusting whore of a woman who could’ve prevented years of confusion and pain if she didn’t lead me on but instead she gave me false hope until she threw me away like trash.
Fucking fuck women. I can’t believe women are so mentally retarded. All I wanted in my life was peace but women always ruin it for me.
If I don’t wagesalve with my dad who walked out on me when I was a kid then I won’t be able to pay for my car insurance, and any time I can manage to buy gas or household necessities there’s no feeling of relief or accomplishment that I got something done, because again my mother keeps bitching. I can’t fucking stand the fact that my mother turned me into an emotional, weak, lazy piece of shit due to me not having my fucking father in the house because the fucking retard abandoned me.
Then somehow when no one was there to teach me how to be an adult in my childhood, it’s suddenly my fucking fault that I don’t want to work, and I can’t mentally function without having anxiety issues. I care about my mother because she raised me, fed me, and never abused me, but for the simple fact that she is a woman every time she gets in a shitty, nagging mood it drives me up a fucking wall. Fuck the girl who rejected me when I was 14 as well, she was once someone I deeply cared for but 7 years later I understand that she’s become a fat, ugly, disgusting whore of a woman who could’ve prevented years of confusion and pain if she didn’t lead me on but instead she gave me false hope until she threw me away like trash.
Fucking fuck women. I can’t believe women are so mentally retarded. All I wanted in my life was peace but women always ruin it for me.
