Venting I fucked up a decade and a half ago and now i'm living in the fallout

[anotherwastedlife]

I missed probably one of the biggest opportunities in my life by not learning how to draw seriously at a very young age, i used to be obsessed with 2d animations from newgrounds and youtube and generally anime, video games and speedpaints. I remember in primary school i'd hop on MS paint and use a mouse and line tools to make quite "good" drawings and i'd draw on paper from memory in the library of things i liked and all the kids were pretty amazed, its honestly heartbreaking that i didn't use the teenage years i had in school to actually learn something to be passionate about, instead i just fell for the "do a trade" meme where i was just bullied all of the time and given ridicule for being an overall fucking loser. Sure i would most likely still be an incel because there is no drawing for my face but i could've made games, animations, comission art with a self employed opportunity where i made some coin instead of being a NEET, having to LDAR for the past 9 years since graduating on my phone and shitty pc which turned me into a retard

I'm trying to make up for all of it now even thought i can't really do anything about it., and honestly its not so great. I made a thread about how i really cannot learn anything and how i'm always just zoned the fuck out because i'm too hyperfixiated on things that are dumb like my phone (not drawing which should've been my hyperfixiation) and honestly, it's way too difficult; really should've done this earlier when i had more brain function but who am i kidding? i probably would've quit even back then after seeing what i was in store for, even back when i was a teenager all i did after getting bullied every weekday was just wank to porn, watch videos and play vidya. JUST LIKE NOW

it's not just that i regret but its also that i didn't play sports early, i went into the wrong field, many things really. but the biggest and most haunting one is not learning how to properly draw early, that truly fucked my whole life up, i answered the call too late and i regret being this fucking retarded everyday. You fuck up as a kid and you live with the consequences. depressing and heart shattering

dnr; title

 

[GrandWizard_137]

dnr

 

[anotherwastedlife]

dnr

 

[Maikowski]

i fucked up my life 15 years ago and have shitty parents

tbh i don't know what im going to do so i just play video games

 

[Skyrim]

 

[JKlancecaster069]

Did read

 

[Skyrim]

I have had a similar experience happen to me but with playing the guitar. I used to be really good at it when I was younger but I stopped practicing because I would rather play video games. now I regret it years later.

 

[anotherwastedlife]

i fucked up my life 15 years ago and have shitty parents

Brutal

tbh i don't know what im going to do so i just play video games

You can't really do anything

 

[Emba]

Whatever you say Mr Fukushima

 

[anotherwastedlife]

Whatever you say Mr Fukushima

Earthquake went ER on that reactor

 

[Emba]

Earthquake went ER on that reactor

Ever notice the lack of mutants?

 

[sadlemon]

you can make up for it

 

[anotherwastedlife]

Ever notice the lack of mutants?

Yep i do

you can make up for it

It will take me well into my 30's in order for me to

 

[sadlemon]

It will take me well into my 30's in order for me to

Having a passion for something makes up for any time you invest into it, it dosn't matter how long it takes. If you can build something that you find worthwhile that's all it matters

 

[Emba]

Yep i do

It will take me well into my 30's in order for me to

You cannot make up for you're face

My condolences bro

 

[anotherwastedlife]

Having a passion for something makes up for any time you invest into it, it dosn't matter how long it takes. If you can build something that you find worthwhile that's all it matters

We'll see, i have kind of lost passion for anything now. but still

You cannot make up for you're face

My condolences bro

Yep
Ty

 

[Razielcel]

It's not your fault really, it was meant to be. Don't add more agony regretting the past, you have it rough already.

 

[RandomGuy]

Whatever you say Mr Fukushima

 

[Grodd]

It's not your fault really, it was meant to be. Don't add more agony regretting the past, you have it rough already.

 

[DarkStar]

Brutal, I'm sorry mang

It's also insane to me that for nine years, you've somehow managed to LDAR indoors constantly on your phone, PC, etc. after getting that cert

I myself, feel I have some potential which has been hindered by many factors

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

I had to wait to get unbanned to reply to this thread! Drawing was my only passion too!

Don't cry over spilled milk, the world is unreasonable and unfair, Chad played sports and learned skills when young while we were too dumb and depressed etc. etc., we all know. I am sad too because I'm behind my peers in many things, and I know I'll never catch up. But what do I get from whining about it? That's how it is. We should try to make the best out of what we have.

It doesn't take that long to become good enough at drawing, especially if you don't start from zero. You aren't even 30 so it's not like you can't learn new skills well. Getting jobs is more difficult because it requires connections, internet presence etc. If you are a NEET you must have enough free time to practice.

If you have the passion or even just a slight interest, you should do it. Some people don't even have that. Forget about how things went, and how unjust it is, and just become hyperfocused on your passion.

Right now, I'm trying to start drawing again. I put a lot of effort in it in middle school and in the last year of high school, but other than that I was too depressed. Now I am depressed too, so it's very difficult for me, but I try.

 

[LOLI BREEDING]

dnr

@LeFrenchCel

 

[LOLI BREEDING]

hard same. I had great potential but clueless family, society and being treated as a subhuman nuked it all to shit

 

[manletcel1488]

Even if you made medicore animations back then you could have made it, that was back during the time you could have made a video such as "dude, what if Mario did drugs and said swear words" and you would still get millions of views.

 

[curryboy420]

Bro I have been in this stagnant same life with same problems all because I fucked up 10 years ago and it's been the same for 10 straight years, a whole fucking decade where I haven't grown or advanced or fixed anything and everything just keeps slowly getting worse. Fuck this life I don't know what the secret is to it.

 

[anotherwastedlife]

hard same. I had great potential but clueless family, society and being treated as a subhuman nuked it all to shit

 

[anotherwastedlife]

Even if you made medicore animations back then you could have made it, that was back during the time you could have made a video such as "dude, what if Mario did drugs and said swear words" and you would still get millions of views.

Definitely, that era was truly a great time for animation as a whole. Luigi's Day Out and Racist Mario are two of my favourite examples of that

Bro I have been in this stagnant same life with same problems all because I fucked up 10 years ago and it's been the same for 10 straight years, a whole fucking decade where I haven't grown or advanced or fixed anything and everything just keeps slowly getting worse. Fuck this life I don't know what the secret is to it.

The secret is that we are just way too defective, brocel. We're malfunctions doomed from the beginning

 

[anotherwastedlife]

It's not your fault really, it was meant to be. Don't add more agony regretting the past, you have it rough already.

Some parts of it has to be my doing, but yes, you're right

Brutal, I'm sorry mang

It's also insane to me that for nine years, you've somehow managed to LDAR indoors constantly on your phone, PC, etc. after getting that cert

I myself, feel I have some potential which has been hindered by many factors

I knew my life was going to be shit so thats how i did it for 9 years, we're just really bad at this life stuff brocel

 

[anotherwastedlife]

I apologise that i had to reply to everything in multiple replies everybody; theres just so much i have to catch up with

I had to wait to get unbanned to reply to this thread! Drawing was my only passion too!

Don't cry over spilled milk, the world is unreasonable and unfair, Chad played sports and learned skills when young while we were too dumb and depressed etc. etc., we all know. I am sad too because I'm behind my peers in many things, and I know I'll never catch up. But what do I get from whining about it? That's how it is. We should try to make the best out of what we have.

It doesn't take that long to become good enough at drawing, especially if you don't start from zero. You aren't even 30 so it's not like you can't learn new skills well. Getting jobs is more difficult because it requires connections, internet presence etc. If you are a NEET you must have enough free time to practice.

If you have the passion or even just a slight interest, you should do it. Some people don't even have that. Forget about how things went, and how unjust it is, and just become hyperfocused on your passion.

Right now, I'm trying to start drawing again. I put a lot of effort in it in middle school and in the last year of high school, but other than that I was too depressed. Now I am depressed too, so it's very difficult for me, but I try.

I'm trying to comeback now, thank you for your words. You defintinely have lit a bit of a spark in me