I feel totally forgotten and hopeless

[curryboy420]

I feel like I am a ghost like I don't even really exist. Nobody really cares for me or interacts with me and people seem to actively try to forget me or get rid of me. I feel really hopeless because of this. Today is hitting more than usual because even my dad is sounding like he wants to just get rid of me and tells me in nice ways that i have to fuck off and stop talking to him about making money and escaping poverty and inceldom. Truly nobody cares. I feel cheated out of life by all the people who were around me when I was growing. They starved me of a real existence.

Now what do I even do other than just commit suicide. I don't like anyone anymore especially my family and I don't have any opportunities or time left to do anything. Everything feels too late and it feels like it slipped out of my hands way too early. I don't want to do this for a whole life man. There is no way for me to escape, no one is going to help me escape. And that's all i want in my life is to escape my family and this poverty and this loneliness.

Who cares lol what a waste of a life and what a waste of my time. At least my story is written on here in a way. But nobody would care enough to read it and know that It wasn't my fault. But it really wasn't my fault my life turned out like this. It was already crumbling apart by the time I was 18. That's not my fault that's because of my shitty childhood. But nobody cares.

 

[Adolf Kitler]

The rope is calling for us.

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Nobody really cares for me or interacts with me .

We are here bro

 

[kaijicel]

srry. idk any better then you bhai

 

[curryboy420]

We are here bro

Thank you guys man I mean it I wish I knew people like this irl it makes me cry for real when I realise then the only friends I have are people that don't even know me on a forum where maybe half the users are ai or police anyway. I wish I had a good family that actually gave a fuck about me. It feels really lonely when all you have is this website.

 

[curryboy420]

The rope is calling for us.

Should I just kill myself and will I not go to hell for eternity because I always feel like killing myself but don't want to go to an even worse place than this

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Thank you guys man I mean it I wish I knew people like this irl it makes me cry for real when I realise then the only friends I have are people that don't even know me on a forum where maybe half the users are ai or police anyway. I wish I had a good family that actually gave a fuck about me. It feels really lonely when all you have is this website.

I know this forum is not real life, but I go through the same as you.
Literally have no one to talk to, no friends and pretty much a 'ghost' identity in society. I cried myself to sleep 1 day before valentines day, it was the first hard depression that hit again after a while.
My life isn't all that spectacular.. I work a fulltime wagie wagie, workout to keep myself somewhat healthy, scroll through YouTube, this Forum and spend time playing games on my Xbox and Gaming PC during the weekend, that's it

 

[Adolf Kitler]

Should I just kill myself

That's completely up to you.

and will I not go to hell for eternity because I always feel like killing myself but don't want to go to an even worse place than this

Hell is not real. That's just some retarded religous fearmongering.

 

[Grodd]

The rope is calling for us.

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

I feel like I am a ghost like I don't even really exist. Nobody really cares for me or interacts with me and people seem to actively try to forget me or get rid of me. I feel really hopeless because of this. Today is hitting more than usual because even my dad is sounding like he wants to just get rid of me and tells me in nice ways that i have to fuck off and stop talking to him about making money and escaping poverty and inceldom. Truly nobody cares. I feel cheated out of life by all the people who were around me when I was growing. They starved me of a real existence.

Now what do I even do other than just commit suicide. I don't like anyone anymore especially my family and I don't have any opportunities or time left to do anything. Everything feels too late and it feels like it slipped out of my hands way too early. I don't want to do this for a whole life man. There is no way for me to escape, no one is going to help me escape. And that's all i want in my life is to escape my family and this poverty and this loneliness.

Who cares lol what a waste of a life and what a waste of my time. At least my story is written on here in a way. But nobody would care enough to read it and know that It wasn't my fault. But it really wasn't my fault my life turned out like this. It was already crumbling apart by the time I was 18. That's not my fault that's because of my shitty childhood. But nobody cares.

Same man, I feel so lost in life. Feels like everything is stacking against me and it’s depressing af