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I work in Japanese company with Japanese people. Since there are translators from Russian to Japanese (Because i am Russian), i met this girl who speaks Japanese. She is high tier becky girl and we had a lot in common - She watches anime, introverted, she lived in Japan... We both share the same oppinions about topics, etc... When i met her i was like wtf because i never, in my entire life, met a person like that. Though i do not believe that she is HQNP because she is 25 years old without boyfriend, this is a red flag to me personally, but at this point i have not talked to female in years so i did not resisted to talk to her (i have no choice).
To my suprise, conversations were always going good, there was no pressure or social anxiety or "Am i NT enough" paranoia bullshit... and we could talk for hours. Seemingly things were going so good that i invited her for drink and she accepted my invite. I was so happy that day because this is my first time to go with girl on a date
i almost cried because i though i would finally escape inceldom
When i met her, i gave her chocolate and she hugged me and we went to shopping, then we went to caffeteria, then we used to walk through the city, and when i asked her to go to her place, she said no... Then i was like okay... I only got hug that day..
From that moment everything is starting to decline, it's like the initial desire has gone (not that i am attractive, but we have similar topics to talk about), she texts me less and less and i'm becoming more depressed. One month later, i'm quitting my job today and i tried to get her personal contact but she just 'seens' my messages, and she is angry without reason.
I'm on the edge of suicide because this is my FIRST time ever to ascend and i blew it, and i'm 19 years old. For the last 6 months i have been crying every night before sleep without reason, maybe you have it harder than me but please understand that everyone has their different background, story, and experience. I managed to execute everything perfectly with this girl and i got fucking nowhere, i am clinically deformed... but even if that is the reason for rejection, why would she go on date with me still??? I'm typing this down as i'm crying, i don't care if this is cucked or if i am low T for caring too much, i just wanted to put this down because i have nobody to talk to.
To my suprise, conversations were always going good, there was no pressure or social anxiety or "Am i NT enough" paranoia bullshit... and we could talk for hours. Seemingly things were going so good that i invited her for drink and she accepted my invite. I was so happy that day because this is my first time to go with girl on a date
i almost cried because i though i would finally escape inceldomWhen i met her, i gave her chocolate and she hugged me and we went to shopping, then we went to caffeteria, then we used to walk through the city, and when i asked her to go to her place, she said no... Then i was like okay... I only got hug that day..
From that moment everything is starting to decline, it's like the initial desire has gone (not that i am attractive, but we have similar topics to talk about), she texts me less and less and i'm becoming more depressed. One month later, i'm quitting my job today and i tried to get her personal contact but she just 'seens' my messages, and she is angry without reason.
I'm on the edge of suicide because this is my FIRST time ever to ascend and i blew it, and i'm 19 years old. For the last 6 months i have been crying every night before sleep without reason, maybe you have it harder than me but please understand that everyone has their different background, story, and experience. I managed to execute everything perfectly with this girl and i got fucking nowhere, i am clinically deformed... but even if that is the reason for rejection, why would she go on date with me still??? I'm typing this down as i'm crying, i don't care if this is cucked or if i am low T for caring too much, i just wanted to put this down because i have nobody to talk to.
