SuicideFuel I fear reaching my 30s as a kissless virgin but I just can’t get myself to see a whore

[Deleted member 101]

My 23rd birthday is coming up this month. I am deathly afraid of being an old guy who’s never even kissed a girl.

But I can’t get myself to see a hooker. The idea depresses me. Paying a girl to hold back her disgust while you fuck her. Even if she’s nice, it’s all fake. I’d never be able to stop wondering if she hates me and my ugliness and bad social skills as I fuck her.

I want genuine connection. I know this is impossible. The blackpill confirms this. But I still long for a deep, intimate connection with a girl via a sexual romantic relationship. I have no interest in pumping and dumping sluts. I can’t get this “connection” with an escort.

Fuck. I wish I only cared about sex. Then this would be easy, but I would feel shame of seeing a hooker to lose my virginity and not have a special experience like my peers have in high school. An important developmental milestone. Sure the sex was probably shit, but it was still fun to go through that with another girl, laughing and giggling as you two explore each other’s bodies for the first time.

I’ll never have that. And it’s not like there’s many women out there that would legit be happy to guide me through my first time. They all want experienced men. Not little boy virgins.

 

[Deleted member 14866]

i wanted to fuck a hooker when i was 18/19 and was looking around but backed out of it because i didnt want to lose it to a hooker at 19.

little did i know thats my only option

 

[Deleted member 101]

i wanted to fuck a hooker when i was 18/19 and was looking around but backed out of it because i didnt want to lose it to a hooker at 19.

little did i know thats my only option

The only time it’s ever alpha to fuck a hooker is when you’re like 13 or 14.

That’s how Charlie Sheen lost his virginity.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

I am deathly afraid of being an old guy who’s never even kissed a girl.

The question is, why does this bother you? I mean specifically, what thoughts or feelings come into your head when you think that?

As depending upon your answer, you may or may not be able to resolve your problem by seeing a prostitute. If it's just some sort of arbitrary fear, that seems to be more of a case of you putting yourself down than anything else tbh. To resolve that you need to stop feeling like you need to complete a checklist of things to be considered human.

If it's loneliness, then obviously escortcelling won't help that.

However if you just want physical pleasure, then maybe it would be be a good option for you.

 

[Deleted member 14866]

The only time it’s ever alpha to fuck a hooker is when you’re like 13 or 14.

That’s how Charlie Sheen lost his virginity.

because his dad was also a good looking and rich hollywood star

 

[Deleted member 101]

The question is, why does this bother you? I mean specifically, what thoughts or feelings come into your head when you think that?

As depending upon your answer, you may or may not be able to resolve your problem by seeing a prostitute. If it's just some sort of arbitrary fear, that seems to be more of a case of you putting yourself down than anything else tbh. To resolve that you need to stop feeling like you need to complete a checklist of things to be considered human.

If it's loneliness, then obviously escortcelling won't help that.

However if you just want physical pleasure, then maybe it would be be a good option for you.

Because this is embarrassing to not reach it at a certain age. And I wanna be able to experience something so intimate.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

Because this is embarrassing to not reach it at a certain age.

That's what I mean, this part is just an effort to satisfy the expectations of normies. Don't pay attention to them, and you can always just lie if it comes up.

And I wanna be able to experience something so intimate.

This one is difficult tbh, I can see what you mean about why you're reluctant to fuck a prostitute, as would you want to be intimate with someone you don't know?

 

[Deleted member 101]

That's what I mean, this part is just an effort to satisfy the expectations of normies. Don't pay attention to them, and you can always just lie if it comes up.

This one is difficult tbh, I can see what you mean about why you're reluctant to fuck a prostitute, as would you want to be intimate with someone you don't know?

I want to be intimate with someone who feels the same as I do towards them. With escorts you either have women who are visibly disgusted by you or put on a really good act that they aren’t.

 

[Murdoch89]

Join the club, I know I'm still going to be a kissless virgin when I'm 40, 50, 60 and so on

 

[StaroRavager]

It would be illogical to discard your only option (assuming you’re sub4)

 

[Deleted member 101]

Online dating is full of sluts, that only want the hot guys and they reject the average/uglier guys. White knight faggot males will defend the women on dating sites and social media with blue pill faggot nonsense. Most of those guys on dating sites never find anyone just like us.

Paying a sex worker(s) and getting the sex is a logical route. Romance relationship is unobtainable for us sub humans. Endless self improvement will not change things for the better. Paying for sex is the only option.

I’ll only consider it when I am committed to killing myself. I’ll fuck a hooker the day before I end it.

 

[VirginAutistManlet]

You're already 1 step ahead by being concerned about this at 22 years old.

I am in my early 30s and when I was 22 I was balls deep into MMORPGs and had accepted my place as as incel and stopped giving any thought to this shit. It was only when I hit 30 and MMORPGs no longer kept my attention that I started thinking about this stuff again.

To clarify: 10+ years ago I didn't know what an Incel was, what I mean by "accepting my place" was that I accepted back then that I was incapable of being normie and obtaining a foid to have sex with, so I was LDARing already back then, probably LDARing back then more so than I do now tbh, because at least back then I played video games, now I just post stuff on incel forums, which you could argue is worse than playing video games.

 

[DaveBuster]

You're right, you won't get what you want out of a whore. Afterwards, you will still be an incel. Inceldom is not about the sex act.

 

[Deleted member 101]

You're already 1 step ahead by being concerned about this at 22 years old.

I am in my early 30s and when I was 22 I was balls deep into MMORPGs and had accepted my place as as incel and stopped giving any thought to this shit. It was only when I hit 30 and MMORPGs no longer kept my attention that I started thinking about this stuff again.

To clarify: 10+ years ago I didn't know what an Incel was, what I mean by "accepting my place" was that I accepted back then that I was incapable of being normie and obtaining a foid to have sex with, so I was LDARing already back then, probably LDARing back then more so than I do now tbh, because at least back then I played video games, now I just post stuff on incel forums, which you could argue is worse than playing video games.

LDARing sucks, especially when you see everyone else but you having fun in their lives with people who value them.

 

[VirginAutistManlet]

LDARing sucks, especially when you see everyone else but you having fun in their lives with people who value them.

And how do you expect to just become valued when you've never been valued for anything?

 

[Reize]

I feel you man, that feeling of having someone loving you is the best thing it could possibly happen to me

Just thinking about it makes me so happy before making me rage because it will never come true

 

[Deleted member 101]

And how do you expect to just become valued when you've never been valued for anything?

I know I never will. I hate myself.

 

[wasted12years]

23 is nothing dude. You should start worrying when you're 25. That's when time flies and you're suddenly 28 like me.

 

[Deleted member 101]

23 is nothing dude. You should start worrying when you're 25. That's when time flies and you're suddenly 28 like me.

28 year old virgins were 23 year old virgins at one point in their lives.

 

[virgin4life]

Do it! I am 37 and can hardly get a boner anymore. Do it before its too late.

 

[Deleted member 101]

Do it! I am 37 and can hardly get a boner anymore. Do it before its too late.

I've already explained why I don't want to.

 

[Deleted member 18435]

LDARing sucks, especially when you see everyone else but you having fun in their lives with people who value them.

God this

2 to 6/10 women that believe they are 5 to 9/10 women. The bitches are deluded and they will not settle for their looks match.

It's so laughably stupid

 

[Evildоer]

The bitches are deluded and they will not settle for their looks match.

They are not deluded, they just know modern market allows them to date above their looksmatch.

 

[Cuyen]

I'm about to reach 20yo as a kissless virgin. it only get worse tbh

 

[virgin4life]

I've already explained why I don't want to.

Ok... DO IT though!!!

 

[Deleted member 16455]

the agepill spares no one

 

[imbored21]

Pay a whore. Everything is fake anyways. The only thing you should be worried about is what others provide for you. The only people who genuinely care about you are your parents. Everyone else uses you for their selfish desires and you should be no different.

 

[Sans]

The only time it’s ever alpha to fuck a hooker is when you’re like 13 or 14.

That’s how Charlie Sheen lost his virginity.

Does it still count as alpha if I’m 17? Since I’m not an adult yet?

 

[Deleted member 6018]

All foids fake love unless you’re Chad and from what we know you’re not Chad