God'sGreatestRegret
Cursed from Birth
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- Sep 18, 2018
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All day has this dream lingered over me like a black cloud. A warning perhaps, foreshadowing the inevitable. The sequence was about my ‘elephant in the room.’ My step-dad confronting me over my failures. I grasp at straws, making excuses as he asks why I have no job, girlfriend or any signs of a promising future.
These questions kill me every day. Being 24 and unable to support myself, I know I am a failure and disappointment to my family. The days pass and their frustration builds, mother vents her dissatisfaction to a close friend, and family members which makes me avoid them. She could throw me out if she wanted and I’d be homeless.
I appreciate the financial support she gives me. I want to improve the financial status-quo of the household. I want to help her retire because she’s getting old.
The thing that hurts is that I recently secured two respectable jobs in the same week, but my documents were insufficient, i.e. passport expired. I’ve had no luck on Craigslist. A few men offered work but stopped replying when I sent a photo.
My prayers always fail. Take away my distractions: fantasies, comics and cartoons, music and hobbies, and I can’t even live with myself.
These questions kill me every day. Being 24 and unable to support myself, I know I am a failure and disappointment to my family. The days pass and their frustration builds, mother vents her dissatisfaction to a close friend, and family members which makes me avoid them. She could throw me out if she wanted and I’d be homeless.
I appreciate the financial support she gives me. I want to improve the financial status-quo of the household. I want to help her retire because she’s getting old.
The thing that hurts is that I recently secured two respectable jobs in the same week, but my documents were insufficient, i.e. passport expired. I’ve had no luck on Craigslist. A few men offered work but stopped replying when I sent a photo.
My prayers always fail. Take away my distractions: fantasies, comics and cartoons, music and hobbies, and I can’t even live with myself.