I spend all of my free waking moments daydreaming and imagining having a gf. I come up with these stories in my mind where I get to be Chad.
When I fall asleep at night, most of the time I am an incel, and no one likes me, but sometimes I get dreams where I am some kind of superhuman with telekinesis. I spend most of the time in these dreams going ER, flying around like superman and blowing shit up with my telekinesis, or sometimes there are monsters that appear for no particular reason and I fight and kill them, or they kill me and I wake up.
There is one dream that stands out to me, it was some kind of zombie/lovecraftian horror apocalypse scenario, where there were these giant bipedal humanoid eldritch tentacle monster zombies walking around and I was spending the whole time killing them. There was this girl with me the whole time, a couple of times in the dream I kissed and even had sex with the girl, but eventually I got caught by the monsters and died, and I woke up. When I woke up I wanted to go back to sleep but I couldn't, I tried to continue the dream while awake but it just fell apart like sand. I still remember how soft it felt, like nothing I have ever felt before, I don't know how my mind even came up/imagined such a feeling, but every time I remember it I just feel like roping.
