My depression is so severe that I'm crying as I write this. I don't want to experience this pain anymore; it hurts so much that I'd rather endure physical beatings every week instead. I've lost all hope in my life. Everything feels pointless, dull, and gray, and it makes me feel like such a failure.
My mom constantly tells me to give up, insisting that I won't succeed in life. My dad now avoids me, and whenever he looks at me, it's with disappointment before he turns away and leaves me. I'm tired of everyone treating me poorly. Wherever I go, people give me disgusted looks, are rude to me, or outright laugh at me. I know I won't find justice, and it seems like nobody cares.
I no longer have any coping mechanisms. I've relied too heavily on daydreaming, gaming, and anime, but now they bring me no enjoyment. The boredom has become so unbearable that it's causing me physical pain. I'm just so tired of life, but I would never consider ending it because I'm scared of death, and as a Muslim, suicide is not an option.
When I turn to religion for solace, I question why Allah grants some people wonderful lives where everything goes well for them, while others live in a constant state of misery, with nothing ever going right. It feels unfair that both individuals would enter Jannah (paradise) after death. The person who had a good life would forever mog the one who endured suffering, while the unlucky one would have their painful memories erased. It all just seems incredibly unfair to me. It's truly over
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My mom constantly tells me to give up, insisting that I won't succeed in life. My dad now avoids me, and whenever he looks at me, it's with disappointment before he turns away and leaves me. I'm tired of everyone treating me poorly. Wherever I go, people give me disgusted looks, are rude to me, or outright laugh at me. I know I won't find justice, and it seems like nobody cares.
I no longer have any coping mechanisms. I've relied too heavily on daydreaming, gaming, and anime, but now they bring me no enjoyment. The boredom has become so unbearable that it's causing me physical pain. I'm just so tired of life, but I would never consider ending it because I'm scared of death, and as a Muslim, suicide is not an option.
When I turn to religion for solace, I question why Allah grants some people wonderful lives where everything goes well for them, while others live in a constant state of misery, with nothing ever going right. It feels unfair that both individuals would enter Jannah (paradise) after death. The person who had a good life would forever mog the one who endured suffering, while the unlucky one would have their painful memories erased. It all just seems incredibly unfair to me. It's truly over
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