I'm 19 years old, and I feel like I've completely failed at life. I've been treated poorly, like an abused dog, and I don't consider myself attractive. I don't understand what I did to deserve this. I was always kind to everyone and wished the best for them, but I was still mocked. I have no idea why. People only reached out to me when they needed something. I have no friends and have been isolated at home for the past four years. Even at the age of 14, I realized how messed up the world really is. You can call me a conspiracy theorist, but I've delved into Freemasons and the Illuminati, tracing their origins back to Mystery Babylon, and I've studied some symbolism and numerology. I don't really know how to move forward. Should I consider ending it all (in Minecraft), even though I'm a Muslimcel, or should I cope with the agepill? It would be nice if you could help me.
