When I look at foids, I don't see potential partners, nor do I see anyone whom I could ever truly develop feelings for, I'm entirely disillusioned with them. The combined years of witnessing the behavior of foids, being treated cruelly by them since childhood, and seeing the blackpills that others have posted here has destroyed any capacity I otherwise had to idolize or worship foids. For one example of what I mean, I haven't had an oneitis since I was in my early teens, and I suspect I'm now (thankfully) incapable of developing such feelings of even mere infatuation for actual females.
Seeing an attractive foid in public, while I'll feel attraction to her, I'm equally repulsed by my knowledge of her nature, and resentful of the fact that I have involuntary urges to fuck her and be close to her. My body makes me feel like I should approach foids, but on the rare instance in which I do so, I'm reminded of how much I despise them, and I once again begin to wonder why I approached in the first place. It feels as if there is a conflict between my personality, my unfortunate appearance, and my biological urges. I would unconsciously project my own fantasies and desires upon foids who were simply incapable of meeting these expectations, but my body would try to force my to persist in pursuing a relationship with them anyway, yet my appearance has made both sex and a relationship with them impossible.
Part of it might have to do with me getting older. I realize that at this point there is absolutely no chance of finding a foid who doesn't have lots of past partners, and due to this she'd be almost certain to eventually leave me, making the endeavor pointless(at least as far as I'm concerned). I still want sex obviously, but I can't think of any realistic way of getting it besides paying for it. Maybe I'll try that in the future, I'm not sure, however a 3D girlfriend seems wholly unappealing at this point.
Seeing an attractive foid in public, while I'll feel attraction to her, I'm equally repulsed by my knowledge of her nature, and resentful of the fact that I have involuntary urges to fuck her and be close to her. My body makes me feel like I should approach foids, but on the rare instance in which I do so, I'm reminded of how much I despise them, and I once again begin to wonder why I approached in the first place. It feels as if there is a conflict between my personality, my unfortunate appearance, and my biological urges. I would unconsciously project my own fantasies and desires upon foids who were simply incapable of meeting these expectations, but my body would try to force my to persist in pursuing a relationship with them anyway, yet my appearance has made both sex and a relationship with them impossible.
Part of it might have to do with me getting older. I realize that at this point there is absolutely no chance of finding a foid who doesn't have lots of past partners, and due to this she'd be almost certain to eventually leave me, making the endeavor pointless(at least as far as I'm concerned). I still want sex obviously, but I can't think of any realistic way of getting it besides paying for it. Maybe I'll try that in the future, I'm not sure, however a 3D girlfriend seems wholly unappealing at this point.
