Holy fucking shit mang, I was recently scrolling reddit, I saw posts about normies celebrating their 16th, 18th and 21st birthday parties and all that shiet and It fucking dawned on me. I haven't celebrated jack, since my conception I always wanted to be secluded, I'd much rather get PS2 games than actually have a birthday party. I've always told my parents that I'd much rather get presents than a fully fledged birthday party. Even though we didn't have a lot of money, I always insisted that I would love video games(I've been coping with vidya as long as I remember). I went on a bit of a tangent but what I'm trying to say is that I haven't celebrated any so called "societal milestones". This was all before I knew about the blackpill, I didn't go to my matric dance(Prom for jewmericans), didn't celebrate my 16th, 18th, 21st. I didn't celebrate getting into uni, I won't celebrate my graduation from university. I won't celebrate anything because I'm a genetically inferior subhuman. I knew this before I even knew about the blackpill
I can't keep coping, it's soo hard to cope now, I missed every important milestones in my life. I feel indifferent but maybe if I had gone through those milestones I would've been better off...? Who the fuck knows but it looks like we'll never find out.
I've actually never even lived a average teenage life jfl. I don't take pictures of myself. No joke, I've never taken a selfie of myself in my entire life, the closest thing to a selfie was setting up facial recognition on my phone and that was a really grueling process ngl, I hated every second. I've hated myself all my life, and slowly contemplating about my past experiences, I've realised that I was destined to be on this forum, destined to watch rehab room, destined to ultimately be sad but maybe it's God's plan(I'm not here to debate yall niggas jfl). Maybe there'll be stacy's in heaven waiting for me or better yet maybe in heaven God will remove our sex drives and we'll praise him for all of eternity and live in paradise for the rest of our lives. I pray that it's the latter though.
I can't keep coping, it's soo hard to cope now, I missed every important milestones in my life. I feel indifferent but maybe if I had gone through those milestones I would've been better off...? Who the fuck knows but it looks like we'll never find out.
I've actually never even lived a average teenage life jfl. I don't take pictures of myself. No joke, I've never taken a selfie of myself in my entire life, the closest thing to a selfie was setting up facial recognition on my phone and that was a really grueling process ngl, I hated every second. I've hated myself all my life, and slowly contemplating about my past experiences, I've realised that I was destined to be on this forum, destined to watch rehab room, destined to ultimately be sad but maybe it's God's plan(I'm not here to debate yall niggas jfl). Maybe there'll be stacy's in heaven waiting for me or better yet maybe in heaven God will remove our sex drives and we'll praise him for all of eternity and live in paradise for the rest of our lives. I pray that it's the latter though.
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