that's enough for me
there is nothing for me to do in this place
there is nothing for me to do in this place
I don't even have the energy to think about justice anymore
I just want to leave, just that
too early, I'm 18yo
I kek’d
That’s a cope, it’s never too early
My situation is like this. I've been put on a desert island (when I was young). There's absolutely no way to leave the island but there's also no danger on this island. I get endless supply of food (magic) and a working PC (magic) with no internet connection but a few preinstalled games to keep me occupied. There are only three actions I can do: play these games, LDAR (do nothing) or drown myself in water. Unfortunately, the games aren't even fun, I wouldn't normally be interested in them at all, they're awful and they're all bugged and stuck at hardcore difficulty (and I can't play them at all). So I'll go through cycles: I'll LDAR but eventually get bored of it, so I say "hey, maybe these games aren't that bad" and try to play them for a while, but I can't make any progress and they're extremely frustrating, so I return to LDAR. I could eventually maybe win at them if I put all my effort in it, but the only reason I even attempt to play them is that I have nothing else to do (but literally rotting is comparably fun). I should just go drown myself, but sometimes I'll get a really tasty fruit or I'll see a very nice cloud or a bunch of stars in the sky -- occasionally there seems to be something stimulating (it's still nothing compared to real life, it only stimulates me so much because I'm so deprived). I'm a little hopeful that someday people will return and take me back from the island but at this point I'm not sure if there is anything but that island. I cope by creating art (the PC has a graphic and text editor) but my art is very simple and childish: I try to imagine something "beyond", something good and fun, but my only frame of reference are these games and this island. I want to believe there's something better beyond this island but I have no idea what it could be and if I ever get there. I try to utilize the limited input (games, island, basic language knowledge) I've been given to try to portray something which seems extraordinary to me, but I know that it's probably far off and minuscule in comparison with the actual world beyond my island. I have a FPS game and fruit, so I imagine shooting tasty fruit to feed people instead of bullets to kill them; I know stars and clouds, so I imagine that beyond my island there are fancier stars and clouds and people talk about them all the time etc.
You can deny reality
But you cannot deny the consequences of denying reality
But you cannot deny the consequences of denying reality
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Drowning yourself is one of the most painful ways to die naturally tbh
If you are going to rope there are better, quicker ways like jumping off a tall building. Not that I recommend that ofc but if you feel at wits end don't resort to ending yourself by drowning.
unless you always liked water and always hated heights... like me
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Minutes suffocating with water in your lungs is way more painful than a quick end once you hit the ground tbh
Jumping off a tall building over drowning any day tbh
Agreed. Blackpill numbness for me.
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