SuicideFuel I deeply regret everything

[Qwertyuiop99]

I regret I fell in love to Her. I regret I have helped her a lot . Everything (finals) is over by now. This morning I messaged her ,I asked to send me one of her essay (she told me she was good at writing) . She answered "story or essay" I answered "story" . She hasn't answered yet . If it was something related to the physics exam she would answered on the spot . The semester is over ,at worse someone might have 1-2 classes to finish with. Everyone has free time by now. If I was Chad the treatment would have been different...

I know we won't talk much , it's basically over . I won't force anything. What I did do deserve that ?
I helped her with homeworks , I explained her the questions she got wrong in midterm 2 , I helped her for the final. I agreed to go in her campus (which is far away from mine) .I answered her calls and talked to her and ensured she understood everything. I sent her a past exam...

I should have kept the conversation professionally when were studying together instead of trying to know her, talking about relationship between Haitian and Dominican. Anyway she has been in the US since 6-7 years old ,she is used to Chads ,why the fuck she would love an average black.

Tbh it wasn't my fault , she had curly hair, glasses,nice face,big boobs... I always crave to talk to her . When that happened I expected something. A non experienced guy would always see any kind gest as flirting.

I need to forget her asap, I don't want to suffer. This wound will take time to heal. I've been talking to a freshman (black-latina) on IG ,I told her about the French club, she said she'll join . I hope , I'll be close to her.

 

[TheJester]

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

I tought I did everything right

 

[ILongForArmageddon]

I tought I did everything right

You did. And that's why you're alone.

 

[Misogynist Vegeta]

Do you ever not suffer?

 

[Darth Aries]

If you’re on this website it never began. I spent 6 years deeply in love/obsessed with a girl I knew since I was a child. No matter what I tried, she never accepted my love. If anything, each time I’d see her I would only feel anxiety, followed by an unhealthy and obsessive state of mind when getting home. She made me think love was possible, and I actually was able to feel how it would feel if she actually loved me back, and it made me very happy at the time, but only because I had hope. Here I am now with not much to my name while she lives it up in college with a new boyfriend of hers. I don’t even think I exist in her mind anymore, and much of the love I once had for her has been replaced with hatred anyway.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

You did. And that's why you're alone.

Brutal

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Do you ever not suffer?

No

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

You did. And that's why you're alone.

What I should have done?

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

If you’re on this website it never began. I spent 6 years deeply in love/obsessed with a girl I knew since I was a child. No matter what I tried, she never accepted my love. If anything, each time I’d see her I would only feel anxiety, followed by an unhealthy and obsessive state of mind when getting home. She made me think love was possible, and I actually was able to feel how it would feel if she actually loved me back, and it made me very happy at the time, but only because I had hope. Here I am now with not much to my name while she lives it up in college with a new boyfriend of hers. I don’t even think I exist in her mind anymore, and much of the love I once had for her has been replaced with hatred anyway.

I confessed to my kindergarten crush while in college,she rejected me . That was the most rejection I've ever faced.

 

[TheJester]

If you’re on this website it never began. I spent 6 years deeply in love/obsessed with a girl I knew since I was a child. No matter what I tried, she never accepted my love. If anything, each time I’d see her I would only feel anxiety, followed by an unhealthy and obsessive state of mind when getting home. She made me think love was possible, and I actually was able to feel how it would feel if she actually loved me back, and it made me very happy at the time, but only because I had hope. Here I am now with not much to my name while she lives it up in college with a new boyfriend of hers. I don’t even think I exist in her mind anymore, and much of the love I once had for her has been replaced with hatred anyway.

My 1th Highschool best friend was like that. Showered in in love and affection, everything a young boy could give. Confessed 3 timed to her she always just placed me in the friendzone. She seemingly did not give a shit about me whatsover the moment I left that HS for another.

She 100% has no clue who I even am. After all its been 10 years now since we havent seen or spoken with each other.

 

[Darth Aries]

I confessed to my kindergarten crush while in college,she rejected me . That was the most rejection I've ever faced.

I gave the girl I mentioned a detailed drawing of a rose with her name next to it signed in calligraphy and she gave me an emotionless, corporate like thank you. She wanted nothing to do with me, and I had spent the entire summer prior to that day looksmaxxing before it was called looksmaxxing jfl.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

I gave the girl I mentioned a detailed drawing of a rose with her name next to it signed in calligraphy and she gave me an emotionless, corporate like thank you. She wanted nothing to do with me, and I had spent the entire summer prior to that day looksmaxxing before it was called looksmaxxing jfl.

Danm

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

My 1th Highschool best friend was like that. Showered in in love and affection, everything a young boy could give. Confessed 3 timed to her she always just placed me in the friendzone. She seemingly did not give a shit about me whatsover the moment I left that HS for another.

She 100% has no clue who I even am. After all its been 10 years now since we havent seen or spoken with each other.

Brutal

 

[Darth Aries]

My 1th Highschool best friend was like that. Showered in in love and affection, everything a young boy could give. Confessed 3 timed to her she always just placed me in the friendzone. She seemingly did not give a shit about me whatsover the moment I left that HS for another.

She 100% has no clue who I even am. After all its been 10 years now since we havent seen or spoken with each other.

With this girl, her parents were friends of my family so I had to see her at many birthday parties and other family functions. Seeing the girl who is your age, who you love so much, laughing and talking with your own flesh and blood in the same room as you while you sit there nauseated from how much you want her, it’s a sickening feeling I wish she never put me through. I blame my aunt for being best friends with her mother and father.

 

[ILongForArmageddon]

What I should have done?

Accept that no woman will ever see you as anything but walking puke for no reason than you don't give her the tingles, and the reason for that is all women are status-seeking, solipsistic, greedy narcopaths who view all other living beings as objects to be used or discarded as they see fit.

 

[FumoCum]

This happened because you must have a terrible personality. But on a real note, don't expect anything out of others, don't expect them to hold any emotional value to you. Most don't care, why should you ?

 

[HomicidalSuicidal88]

I do too life feels like a curse

 

[TheJester]

With this girl, her parents were friends of my family so I had to see her at many birthday parties and other family functions. Seeing the girl who is your age, who you love so much, laughing and talking with your own flesh and blood in the same room as you while you sit there nauseated from how much you want her, it’s a sickening feeling I wish she never put me through. I blame my aunt for being best friends with her mother and father.

Worst part is I was really in love with her, my only "oneitis" and the only girl I ever had any feelings for

Now I resent all humans, especially women. At this point I am basically just an unfeeling ghost.

Why are you such a "Doomer"?

People question me "Why are you so depressed?" "Why you are such a Doomer?" Problem is Work is pointless. Especially for a lot of guys. Might as well rope. Most Gen Z guys cant have or afford: - A house - An Apartment - Land - Rare Metals - Crypto - Education - Women - Healthcare -...

incels.is

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Accept that no woman will ever see you as anything but walking puke for no reason than you don't give her the tingles, and the reason for that is all women are status-seeking, solipsistic, greedy narcopaths who view all other living beings as objects to be used or discarded as they see fit.

Thanks

 

[Darth Aries]

Worst part is I was really in love with her, my only "oneitis" and the only girl I ever had any feelings for

Now I resent all humans, especially women. At this point I am basically just an unfeeling ghost.

Why are you such a "Doomer"?

People question me "Why are you so depressed?" "Why you are such a Doomer?" Problem is Work is pointless. Especially for a lot of guys. Might as well rope. Most Gen Z guys cant have or afford: - A house - An Apartment - Land - Rare Metals - Crypto - Education - Women - Healthcare -...

incels.is

The women who hurt us are monsters.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

I do too life feels like a curse

Yeah

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

This happened because you must have a terrible personality

No

 

[FumoCum]

No

It was ironic

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

It was ironic

Ah ok

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

. She hasn't answered yet . If it was something related to the physics exam she would answered on the spot .

She's answering on the physics group but she left me on delivered since this morning.

Fuck I'm gonna be so depressed, I'll need to release this anger/frustration at the gym
After I'll finish my last essay I'll reactivate my gym membership

 

[Notkev]

I regret I fell in love to Her. I regret I have helped her a lot . Everything (finals) is over by now. This morning I messaged her ,I asked to send me one of her essay (she told me she was good at writing) . She answered "story or essay" I answered "story" . She hasn't answered yet . If it was something related to the physics exam she would answered on the spot . The semester is over ,at worse someone might have 1-2 classes to finish with. Everyone has free time by now. If I was Chad the treatment would have been different...

I know we won't talk much , it's basically over . I won't force anything. What I did do deserve that ?
I helped her with homeworks , I explained her the questions she got wrong in midterm 2 , I helped her for the final. I agreed to go in her campus (which is far away from mine) .I answered her calls and talked to her and ensured she understood everything. I sent her a past exam...

I should have kept the conversation professionally when were studying together instead of trying to know her, talking about relationship between Haitian and Dominican. Anyway she has been in the US since 6-7 years old ,she is used to Chads ,why the fuck she would love an average black.

Tbh it wasn't my fault , she had curly hair, glasses,nice face,big boobs... I always crave to talk to her . When that happened I expected something. A non experienced guy would always see any kind gest as flirting.

I need to forget her asap, I don't want to suffer. This wound will take time to heal. I've been talking to a freshman (black-latina) on IG ,I told her about the French club, she said she'll join . I hope , I'll be close to her.

Many of us have gone through this. Be direct or go home. Otherwise your not just wasting your time, but energy and mental health as well.
The chick I liked in college never gave a fuck about me and I still see her everyday. It sucks but you have to go and do other shit. Find some copes or hobbies and occupy yourself.

 

[Yournotcold0]

If your sub 5 nothing you will ever do can make a foid love you

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Many of us have gone through this. Be direct or go home. Otherwise your not just wasting your time, but energy and mental health as well.
The chick I liked in college never gave a fuck about me and I still see her everyday. It sucks but you have to go and do other shit. Find some copes or hobbies and occupy yourself.

Thanks

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

If your sub 5 nothing you will ever do can make a foid love you

Brutal truth

 

[Notkev]

Thanks

Welcome, I know how it feels

 

[Qizarate]

It's worse being able to interact with your oneitis somehow.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

It's worse being able to interact with your oneitis somehow.

She was getting close to become my oneitis

 

[Cnidoblastos]

Take the blackpill, start to hate foids, stop to talk with foids... Poft, you can be a new man. There is no other option. As long as you don't kill the inner beta, this will keep happening.

 

[MRHK_57]

Brutal. You are going through stuffs that I faced back in 2021. Yeah these shits messes one up. Don't know if I could help you or not but still, my condolences.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Take the blackpill, start to hate foids, stop to talk with foids... Poft, you can be a new man. There is no other option. As long as you don't kill the inner beta, this will keep happening.

I'm touchedstarved and sexstarved

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Brutal. You are going through stuffs that I faced back in 2021. Yeah these shits messes one up. Don't know if I could help you or not but still, my condolences.

Thanks bro

My best solution is to forget her

 

[Rapistcel]

If you’re on this website it never began. I spent 6 years deeply in love/obsessed with a girl I knew since I was a child. No matter what I tried, she never accepted my love. If anything, each time I’d see her I would only feel anxiety, followed by an unhealthy and obsessive state of mind when getting home. She made me think love was possible, and I actually was able to feel how it would feel if she actually loved me back, and it made me very happy at the time, but only because I had hope. Here I am now with not much to my name while she lives it up in college with a new boyfriend of hers. I don’t even think I exist in her mind anymore, and much of the love I once had for her has been replaced with hatred anyway.

I was crushed of some girls too, I never asked them out, I regret nothing, If I had to start everything again I would act as a I have acted

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

I was crushed of some girls too, I never asked them out, I regret nothing, If I had to start everything again I would act as a I have acted

Yeah
0 ioi I'm not asking

 

[Rapistcel]

Yeah
0 ioi I'm not asking

Nice decission, asking out to girls as a subhuman is a dumb advice.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Nice decission, asking out to girls as a subhuman is a dumb advice.

And dangerous advice

 

[Cnidoblastos]

I'm touchedstarved and sexstarved

we are

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

we are

I felt so happy when we were studying together

Just a presence of a woman...

 

[KhatcodaiA3]

Thanks bro

My best solution is to forget her

Most of us have been there, brocel, you will come out with a stronger will.

Never forget, that is what they are. If you keep idealizing a foid's image you will only get hurt when reality comes knocking to the door. Remember the pain and keep pushing forward

 

[kalash189]

Awalt. Fuck of with the foid worship shit

 

[ItsOver4cel]

If you’re on this website it never began. I spent 6 years deeply in love/obsessed with a girl I knew since I was a child. No matter what I tried, she never accepted my love. If anything, each time I’d see her I would only feel anxiety, followed by an unhealthy and obsessive state of mind when getting home. She made me think love was possible, and I actually was able to feel how it would feel if she actually loved me back, and it made me very happy at the time, but only because I had hope. Here I am now with not much to my name while she lives it up in college with a new boyfriend of hers. I don’t even think I exist in her mind anymore, and much of the love I once had for her has been replaced with hatred anyway.

Literally same as you, except I met my past oneitis at 13. Not much can be said except it was over from the start. No matter how much you self-improove there will always be a better-looking dude next door compared to the sub5 genetic dead end that is yourself. Ain't no help, no childhood friendship that can fix the gap in your bones that would make you stand out compared to the rest.

I actually hate myself for not having realized this sooner, instead wasting so much time and part of my sanity into pleasing a whore that was never going to love me back.

 

[Darth Aries]

Literally same as you, except I met my past oneitis at 13. Not much can be said except it was over from the start. No matter how much you self-improove there will always be a better-looking dude next door compared to the sub5 genetic dead end that is yourself. Ain't no help, no childhood friendship that can fix the gap in your bones that would make you stand out compared to the rest.

I actually hate myself for not having realized this sooner, instead wasting so much time and part of my sanity into pleasing a whore that was never going to love me back.

What’s crazy isI thought the kid she was dating at the time was ugly. If he was “ugly”, I am uglier

 

[ItsOver4cel]

What’s crazy isI thought the kid she was dating at the time was ugly. If he was “ugly”, I am uglier

Same the current bf my ex-oneitis has ain't all that, mostly MTN/HTN with good height (she's a tall stacy attending a good uni).

But yeah, still mogs me. A 5'8 failed engineer with nothing to show for others except how much potential he wasted during his youth due to depression/looks. If I was born a chad and received positive reinforcement every day I would've prolly attended the same uni as her, earn some good money and then settle down happily ever after 30.

Instead, I got socially castrated by my peers since middle school at least. Ended up friendless after HS, failed 3 careers at least before having to settle for a watered down CS degree (which I'm barely passing) and watch how everyone else has their life wrapped up around my age despite them never having worked very hard to earn anything, including the girl I used to like who I hate nowadays. It's sickening and unfair.

 

[decafincel]

You did. And that's why you're alone.

Brutal. Saved.

 

[Qwertyuiop99]

Most of us have been there, brocel, you will come out with a stronger will.

Never forget, that is what they are. If you keep idealizing a foid's image you will only get hurt when reality comes knocking to the door. Remember the pain and keep pushing forward

The most brutal thing is the Latina that only messaged me for homework, thanked me after she realized she passed the class meanwhile she didn't anything to me . Even tough we studied together, helped her a lot. I tought we had a something in common bc she was from Dominican Republic and I'm from Haiti,be both love chocolate and horror movies.

She discarded me like a shit , she didn't care about me at all