Waking up everyday knowing there's no girl out there who will reward you with sex and love just from her care towards you is suicide fuel how do you all survive like ths?
I am just switching between feelings of extremely self hatred for being rejected by society and deep hatred of everything. Sometimes i feel like there is no point in doing anything. It all seems so hollow.
I just.. am. I don't know, what am I supposed to do? Suicide, drugs, escorts? Nah. I can't say I'm not scared of what my future holds and how my mind will be affected in a couple years but I don't know what else to do. The worst part is I see ugly couples all the time. It's literally a phenomenon to me, how do these people get together (all couples in general)?
I would change my sex to female and become a translesbian if I didn't have such manly features that don't translate well. Low T-cels should definitely look into getting surgery.