gingeralerat
walking the path of darkness
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- Joined
- Aug 8, 2018
- Posts
- 14
I haven't logged in to this website in years but I know nobody else anywhere gives a shit. I feel like I'm somewhere far beyond the title of "incel", this word doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. Do I want a girlfriend? Yes. Have I tried? Yes and no, the fear of rejection echoes too deep in my soul. Do I think I could even begin to handle a relationship? Fuck no! No one could ever love me the way I am. I hate myself, I hate my body, I hate my personality, I hate that I'm a loser who isn't good at anything and I hate that I'm bitching about it on some incel forum. I hate the society that loves and cares for women and attractive men while people like me are unwanted, no one cares of I cut myself or blow my fucking brains out while Stacy gets all the sympathy in the world because she has "anxiety". No one wants me, I want to be desired the way women are, I don't want to scramble at their feet for the slightest bit of affection like any man who wants a chance with her has to do. I feel disgusting and hated, when I look in the mirror I think to myself "I can't believe that's me, it's not fair". I want to be one of the beautiful people. I'm beyond ever hoping for love, I know it's pointless, no one could ever love me, not even me. All I want is to stop being a pussy so I can finally kill myself and be at peace.
Sorry for the long ass rant, this has been stewing in my head for awhile and I've had no one to tell it to. Thanks for reading if you did.
Sorry for the long ass rant, this has been stewing in my head for awhile and I've had no one to tell it to. Thanks for reading if you did.