Disclaimer-Everything I say is subject to my mental turmoil and imagination and should not be taken seriously. This is a way to vent my insecurities and weaknesses. None of this should be compared to or applied in any objective sense. The following may contain contradictions, absurdities, and paradoxes regarding complex issues in daily life, but I'm not trying to convince anyone—just expressing my feelings, regardless of whether they are deemed right or wrong. It’s a matter of perspective.
I can't be violent, and I see that as a weakness. Why? Because the inability to inflict harm—especially on those who provoke you—feels like a failure. Not engaging in violence can make you fearful of confrontation, leading to numbness that allows others to take advantage of you.People often say true strength lies in the ability to control oneself and choose restraint over impulse. But is it really that hard to choose restraint? It can seem easy to avoid violence because fear numbs you, and there’s a certain comfort in not wanting to get your hands dirty.Some argue that it’s difficult to numb oneself, and they highlight that if there were no fear of retribution, would I still choose restraint? Yes, it is hard to suppress your feelings after dealing with negativity, but that doesn’t make the complexities of using violence illegitimate. Just because numbing yourself is challenging doesn’t mean it’s beneficial. It can turn you into a passive observer, hiding when faced with even minor disagreements.Those who promote this passive mentality often ignore that life presents different types of difficulties, which can’t be easily compared. Forgiving wrongdoers is hard, but does that make it valuable? It can lead to a loss of autonomy. Conversely, engaging in violence is also difficult due to fear of harm and legal consequences.
The truth is, it’s not about which difficulty is the hardest, but about what type of difficulty offers the right benefits. You can do things that are challenging but detrimental to yourself, or you can choose actions that are easier yet highly beneficial. There are also difficult choices that come with great rewards. Ultimately, there’s no clear answer.
I can't be violent, and I see that as a weakness. Why? Because the inability to inflict harm—especially on those who provoke you—feels like a failure. Not engaging in violence can make you fearful of confrontation, leading to numbness that allows others to take advantage of you.People often say true strength lies in the ability to control oneself and choose restraint over impulse. But is it really that hard to choose restraint? It can seem easy to avoid violence because fear numbs you, and there’s a certain comfort in not wanting to get your hands dirty.Some argue that it’s difficult to numb oneself, and they highlight that if there were no fear of retribution, would I still choose restraint? Yes, it is hard to suppress your feelings after dealing with negativity, but that doesn’t make the complexities of using violence illegitimate. Just because numbing yourself is challenging doesn’t mean it’s beneficial. It can turn you into a passive observer, hiding when faced with even minor disagreements.Those who promote this passive mentality often ignore that life presents different types of difficulties, which can’t be easily compared. Forgiving wrongdoers is hard, but does that make it valuable? It can lead to a loss of autonomy. Conversely, engaging in violence is also difficult due to fear of harm and legal consequences.
The truth is, it’s not about which difficulty is the hardest, but about what type of difficulty offers the right benefits. You can do things that are challenging but detrimental to yourself, or you can choose actions that are easier yet highly beneficial. There are also difficult choices that come with great rewards. Ultimately, there’s no clear answer.
