Venting I cannot control my thoughts

[Stupid Clown]

Because I have a form of OCD I cannot control my thoughts. My mind is constantly bombarded by things that make me ill. Every single rejection and mockery is also simultaneously flashed in my mind multiple times an hour. It is so bad. I want it to stop. I hate myself so much.

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Same. I have severe OCD and there isn't a day in my life it doesn't spam nonsense into my mind

 

[joocel52]

I have severe ocd too it has made my life a hell for the entire last year, i literally couldnt function for a while lol

 

[tranny destroyer]

Shit man. You should crash out. When drug/alcoholics reach point they get clarity of their position and their life.

 

[Stupid Clown]

Same. I have severe OCD and there isn't a day in my life it doesn't spam nonsense into my mind

Over. it's hard to handle. Especially if you're been through trauma

I have severe ocd too it has made my life a hell for the entire last year, i literally couldnt function for a while lol

How do you function now

Shit man. You should crash out. When drug/alcoholics reach point they get clarity of their position and their life.

Can't afford

 

[joocel52]

How do you function now

Barely so. I learned to cope with the thoughts better so they dont bother me as much as before. But its so bad i geniunely consider psychological help despite dismissing most therapy as cope

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Over. it's hard to handle. Especially if you're been through trauma

Yeah, it's brutal. Even worse when you have to work, have sleep troubles, and other shit. I hate the fact that I know the thoughts are irrational, yet if I don't give into the compulsions, it keeps spamming nonsense scenarios into my head

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Barely so. I learned to cope with the thoughts better so they dont bother me as much as before. But its so bad i geniunely consider psychological help despite dismissing most therapy as cope

 

[joocel52]

 

[Stupid Clown]

Barely so. I learned to cope with the thoughts better so they dont bother me as much as before. But its so bad i geniunely consider psychological help despite dismissing most therapy as cope

I don't think there's any help tbh. Maybe drugs to numb your emotions. What's being spammed in my mind is things I genuinely find disgusting so I can't cope myself into thinking I'm ok with them

Yeah, it's brutal. Even worse when you have to work, have sleep troubles, and other shit. I hate the fact that I know the thoughts are irrational, yet if I don't give into the compulsions, it keeps spamming nonsense scenarios into my head

So brutal. Constantly playing Simon says

 

[VintageCarCoper]

So brutal. Constantly playing Simon says

Yeah, it sucks having your own brain playing tricks on you. And you can't tell anyone about it or they'll think you're crazy

 

[joocel52]

I don't think there's any help tbh. Maybe drugs to numb your emotions. What's being spammed in my mind is things I genuinely find disgusting so I can't cope myself into thinking I'm ok with them

Same man, i have horrid shit in my head all day. Tbh, i had severe health ocd as a child and i overcame that through coping, and this severe ocd stuff only returned a year ago after many years of numbness in that regard - probably (hopefully) there is a way out of it, which is why i will try this therapy nonsense idk. But yea mang it sucks ass

 

[joocel52]

Yeah, it sucks having your own brain playing tricks on you. And you can't tell anyone about it or they'll think you're crazy

Its the inability to seperate between oce and your actual thoughts for me

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Its the inability to seperate between oce and your actual thoughts for me

Nah, I can easily separate, but it's still hard to ignore

 

[Stupid Clown]

Same man, i have horrid shit in my head all day. Tbh, i had severe health ocd as a child and i overcame that through coping, and this severe ocd stuff only returned a year ago after many years of numbness in that regard - probably (hopefully) there is a way out of it, which is why i will try this therapy nonsense idk. But yea mang it sucks ass

Good luck.

Yeah, it sucks having your own brain playing tricks on you. And you can't tell anyone about it or they'll think you're crazy

 

[joocel52]

Nah, I can easily separate, but it's still hard to ignore

Mang idk what sort of ocd you have, but nowadays with me its been so persistent for so long i feel like i am going insane lol. But the health stuff i used to have was like this. I knew i didnt have anything, i knew this was jost my body anxiety but i would do stupid rituals and affirmations each day despite my will

 

[joocel52]

Good luck.

Thanks. May you overcome this too brocel

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Mang idk what sort of ocd you have, but nowadays with me its been so persistent for so long i feel like i am going insane lol. But the health stuff i used to have was like this. I knew i didnt have anything, i knew this was jost my body anxiety but i would do stupid rituals and affirmations each day despite my will

Brutal. Classic OCD gaslighting you

 

[Friezacel]

Dont have OCD, but my Aspergers makes me overthink everything a hundred times which drives me insane

 

[Stupid Clown]

Dont have OCD, but my Aspergers makes me overthink everything a hundred times which drives me insane

Relatable. Every social situation is so stressful because you're trying to gauge what to say and how people will react. Then after all the effort even if you're doing well eventually you'll get tired out and the cracks will start showing and people will think you're weird.

 

[Friezacel]

Relatable. Every social situation is so stressful because you're trying to gauge what to say and how people will react. Then after all the effort even if you're doing well eventually you'll get tired out and the cracks will start showing and people will think you're weird.

true that

 

[Kamanbert]

Same there's a constant battle in my head, even when i'm at work or when my attention is onto something distracting like vidya. It takes a crazy amount of mindfulness to quiet that shit. I think religion coping and a super healthy lifestyle will help but it's easier said than done, i'd need to even stop the internet to do that.

 

[Kamanbert]

Relatable. Every social situation is so stressful because you're trying to gauge what to say and how people will react. Then after all the effort even if you're doing well eventually you'll get tired out and the cracks will start showing and people will think you're weird.

So true and relatable. We're just too weary for this shit.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

I can't relax to save my life, my mind is always thinking weird shit or spamming my thoughs, its brutal af because it makes me be on a permanent flight or fight mode, i can't relax, even when im doing my coping passions im still stressed out

 

[Kamanbert]

I can't relax to save my life, my mind is always thinking weird shit or spamming my thoughs, its brutal af because it makes me be on a permanent flight or fight mode, i can't relax, even when im doing my coping passions im still stressed out

Yeah i have it even when i play vidya, it can give me rest when i'm super focused on stuff, like a difficult combat or something. When the gameplay gets quieter it's not guaranteed to pop up but still does quite often.

 

[NIKOCADO AVOCADO]

Yeah even when i play vidya it can give me rest when i'm super focused on stuff, like a difficult combat or something. When the gameplay gets quieter it's not guaranteed to pop up but still does quite often.

Same for me, sometimes when im VERY deep on the cope i do unwind and chill, but as soon as im back to reality it all comes back

 

[ViciousKanga]

Because I have a form of OCD I cannot control my thoughts. My mind is constantly bombarded by things that make me ill. Every single rejection and mockery is also simultaneously flashed in my mind multiple times an hour. It is so bad. I want it to stop. I hate myself so much.

same brother. it drives me crazy sometimes

 

[Apex.Koala]

Because I have a form of OCD I cannot control my thoughts. My mind is constantly bombarded by things that make me ill. Every single rejection and mockery is also simultaneously flashed in my mind multiple times an hour. It is so bad. I want it to stop. I hate myself so much.

Same. I have severe OCD and there isn't a day in my life it doesn't spam nonsense into my mind

Same, OCD and maladaptive daydreaming. I cannot even concentrate on anything, it's like I'm constantly losing touch with reality and desperately try to get back to it

 

[Apex.Koala]

I can't relax to save my life, my mind is always thinking weird shit or spamming my thoughs, its brutal af because it makes me be on a permanent flight or fight mode, i can't relax, even when im doing my coping passions im still stressed out

Most brutal is when sometimes I even get anxiously nauseous because of some weird thoughts I can't even describe

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

You mentioned that you eat crap and have hypertension? That's the reason most probably.

 

[Grodd]

I have severe ocd too it has made my life a hell for the entire last year, i literally couldnt function for a while lol

 

[VintageCarCoper]

Same, OCD and maladaptive daydreaming. I cannot even concentrate on anything, it's like I'm constantly losing touch with reality and desperately try to get back to it

Same