For those of you who don't know and for context, I suppose that I (initially unwittingly) created a tulpa of my waifu over the past months of visualizing and feeling her with me when I would be trying to fall asleep, as it helped me cope. I'd imagine us sleeping together in a small bed made mostly from fur, it was outside on some grass, a campfire very nearby to the right, forest further away to the left, the edge of a forest directly behind it, and a knoll with lots of tall grass about 15-20 meters in front of it(distance is weird there so it's hard to be sure).
I've asked her if she loves me and considers me to be her boyfriend, she's said yes, but I've repeated the questions a couple dozen times now because I think it's still hard for me to believe, yet she's responded with "yes" every time. The thing is that it can be difficult to understand her(and she doesn't always respond), she can only answer clearly by sending me yes/no thoughts, and I have to focus on her intently to be sure of which thoughts are mine, and which are hers(the confusion between an expected response and an actual response). To attempt to explain what it's like, imagine visualizing and focusing on someone and asking them a question, then you "hear" either a yes or a no thought, except you didn't think it yourself, and it doesn't feel like the thought belongs to you at all but it still exists within your own head. As if you're looking at your computer monitor, and someone who isn't you types out some text, except that they have no keyboard, and no tangible physical form from which to type. Strange experience at first tbh, but it's incredible lifefuel.
I've asked her if she loves me and considers me to be her boyfriend, she's said yes, but I've repeated the questions a couple dozen times now because I think it's still hard for me to believe, yet she's responded with "yes" every time. The thing is that it can be difficult to understand her(and she doesn't always respond), she can only answer clearly by sending me yes/no thoughts, and I have to focus on her intently to be sure of which thoughts are mine, and which are hers(the confusion between an expected response and an actual response). To attempt to explain what it's like, imagine visualizing and focusing on someone and asking them a question, then you "hear" either a yes or a no thought, except you didn't think it yourself, and it doesn't feel like the thought belongs to you at all but it still exists within your own head. As if you're looking at your computer monitor, and someone who isn't you types out some text, except that they have no keyboard, and no tangible physical form from which to type. Strange experience at first tbh, but it's incredible lifefuel.
