Incels.is - Involuntary Celibate

So there is this freakishly tall ugly 2/10 around 40yo woman who lives near me. She lives alone and mentally she isnt quite good, she yells on the street and talk to herself. Me being 34 and hitting rock bottom i thought fuck it , i have nothing to lose and maybe i get to finally fuck something. She always talk to me on the street and smiles at me, even though i am repulsed by her, she looks like the slender woman, her hands and feet are much bigger than mine, i thought maybe i have a chance.

So today i asked her is she married or does she have a boyfriend and could we hang out more, she said no but she realised where im going with this and said "my son is very jealous and angry, he will kill you if he sees you talking to me, you better go, shoo, shoo." Then she rambled something about toilet sit i didnt understand. What no pussy does to a man, i cant believe i tried with disgusting looking creature and still fail hard.

I am angry and ashamed of myself for thinking there is a chance and for trying. Fucking over, beyond over, there is no point in even trying.