Serious I am staring down two life paths right now: hope & cope OR rope [desperately need your advice and wisdom brocels]

[wereq]

I have been suffering from GERD and LPR for nearly 6 years now. Got some relief from it at around 2020 after doing a non-invasive procedure, but now after two years, the effects of the procedure are starting to wear out and my LPR symptoms are returning. Now years of chronic illness and trauma has left me worn out and yet a couple of months ago, when my LPR symptoms were much less, my dad persuaded me to try at life one more time with art. Art was meant to be a whitepill for me (a life of coping and transcending beyond the primitive darkness of human nature).

However, with my symptoms returning, my art education is on hold and my blackpill thoughts of failure and ruin are haunting me all the time. I have two choices:

1. In spite of the tiredness of my soul, I somehow muster up the courage and strength to get loads of testing and possibly surgery. And of course the surgery may very well fail either immediately or in a few months time. Or optimistically, surgery can end up being successful for at least the next 5 years.

2. I let the tiredness get the better of me and I just rope. Now, roping isn't easy either. I have Sodium Nitrite but its a year old (although still vacuum sealed) and there's risk of vomiting. I have tall ceilings but in order to set up a bar high up, I need to get some carpenter to come in and do this shit which would attract attention from my dad who knows that I'm desperate to commit suicide and will do anything to prevent me from following through with my plans even though my suffering grows daily.

 

[Inceldom Victim]

If you rope pray to Vishnu you don't respawn as a subhuman curry in your next life

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Hope + Cope = CHOpe

Dewit brothER

 

[wereq]

Just keep going, going, going.

The thing is, my tiredness and suffering grows daily. I already feel like I'm staring down death. I KNOW it would be most peaceful to just give in but my dad as well as my own survival instincts are holding me back.

 

[wereq]

There would be no doubt in your mind, no survival instinct, no debate. Just keep chugging along at your own pace. I can only give generic advice as I do not know you personally.

I see. Thanks.

 

[based zoomer]

God created you with a purpose. He wants your trust. This is the reason for you to look forward in life.

 

[wereq]

God created you with a purpose. He wants your trust.

bruh

 

[wereq]

If you rope pray to Vishnu you don't respawn as a subhuman curry in your next life

I hope I never respawn ever again

 

[wereq]

LOL not a single one of you voted for rope?

 

[MevsEarthpopulation]

LOL not a single one of you voted for rope?

why let them win? every single one of your enemies (females and governement) want you to rope dont let them have it that easily be a pest/parasite for them or maybe even worse ... in video game

 

[wereq]

why let them win? every single one of your enemies (females and governement) want you to rope

They already won.

 

[Ehwhatever]

Suicide isn't worth it. Death is for eternity and that's scary as fuck. It's sounds nice, being unconscious forever, but just try to imagine it. It's horrifyingly incomprehensible. This is your one shot to experience anything ever, so don't throw it away on a whim. Better to distract yourself than rope over dickwads and skanks.

 

[Inceldom Victim]

I hope I never respawn ever again

If you care about your dad, you shouldn't rope until he is dead you would break him in pieces

 

[wereq]

If you care about your dad, you shouldn't rope until he is dead you would break him in pieces

LOL if my dad cared about my suffering, he would offer me a path to rope but he's vowed to prevent it.

 

[Inceldom Victim]

LOL if my dad cared about my suffering, he would offer me a path to rope but he's vowed to prevent it.

lol no parent would help their kid rope no matter what unless maybe the kid is 99% burnt damaged with no limbs

 

[wereq]

lol no parent would help their kid rope no matter what unless maybe the kid is 99% burnt damaged with no limbs

cucked thinking like this is why our society hasn't transcended beyond subhumanity.

 

[cvh1991]

I have been suffering from GERD and LPR for nearly 6 years now. Got some relief from it at around 2020 after doing a non-invasive procedure, but now after two years, the effects of the procedure are starting to wear out and my LPR symptoms are returning. Now years of chronic illness and trauma has left me worn out and yet a couple of months ago, when my LPR symptoms were much less, my dad persuaded me to try at life one more time with art. Art was meant to be a whitepill for me (a life of coping and transcending beyond the primitive darkness of human nature).

However, with my symptoms returning, my art education is on hold and my blackpill thoughts of failure and ruin are haunting me all the time. I have two choices:

1. In spite of the tiredness of my soul, I somehow muster up the courage and strength to get loads of testing and possibly surgery. And of course the surgery may very well fail either immediately or in a few months time. Or optimistically, surgery can end up being successful for at least the next 5 years.

2. I let the tiredness get the better of me and I just rope. Now, roping isn't easy either. I have Sodium Nitrite but its a year old (although still vacuum sealed) and there's risk of vomiting. I have tall ceilings but in order to set up a bar high up, I need to get some carpenter to come in and do this shit which would attract attention from my dad who knows that I'm desperate to commit suicide and will do anything to prevent me from following through with my plans even though my suffering grows daily.

My opinion? Especially if you’re somewhat young get the best job you can, keep your costs as low as possible (roommates are a necessity sadly these days or paying rent to your family that sort of thing), then read “The Bogleheads Guide to Investing”.

Throw as much money regularly as you can afford into passive total market index funds like VT or a good target date fund (do not touch this money for at least 20 years — markets will go up and down and you need an emergency fund) and then just keep doing that for the next 25 years and you’ll wealthy one day.

Yeah, you’ll be 50-60 years old but for the last 25 years of your life you’ll get to fuck all the whores you want and buy viagra.

You’ve got bad genetics but simply not being fat and going for a walk everyday is a big deal from a health standpoint.

To cope either play video games, watch non soy TV, or join a dungeons and dragons group something like that. Hell, make some buddies over voice chat in games, that’s what I did — nobody can see my face there.

I understand it’s a lot of cope and a lot of grinding and life sucks without a partner but if you become somewhat wealthy and keep your weight down you might be able to eek out a net positive life eventually. Or, if all of that seems impossible or not worth it than you gotta make your own choices. Life sucks for ugly low status poor men. How it is unfortunately, I’m sorry mate.

 

[erenyeager]

Did someone say PATHS

 

[wereq]

Did someone say PATHS

Its cope or rope for me.

 

[erenyeager]

Its cope or rope for me.

I'm in PATHS

 

[wereq]

I'm going to be of the dissenting opinion here and say you should rope, because the surgery might be too expensive and you could be in even more pain, but only after you have exhausted all options in life and can't continue your art education.

I want the rope to be easily accessible to me in the event my surgery gets botched or I get denied surgery and my symptoms worsen, but my dad is refusing it.

 

[Young Werther]

Are you okay with someone in your family finding you if you were to rope? I am just wondering, because even though I want to rope, I wouldn't want a family member to find me.

 

[wereq]

Are you okay with someone in your family finding you if you were to rope? I am just wondering, because even though I want to rope, I wouldn't want a family member to find me.

Well they're going to find my anyways. No two ways about it.