darkdungeon
Gespatchopilled Shrekcel
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Fucking hate life man
Like I just curled up to cry and then I realised that dinner's almost done and my mom will call me down any second and I don't want to have red, crying eyes around family. I am a 22 year old "MAN" curling up on his bed like a child to cry. I am a 300 pound "MAN" making himself as small as possible because he's sad about not having friends like he did when he was 9.
My own grandmother called me ugly yesterday, unprompted, insulting is not our style of talking to eachother for fun otherwise it wouldn't have affected me as much as it did although maybe she was joking. I don't know...
I want to die but I just can't bring myself to do it yet, I've given myself until 35 and if I'm still this way by then, I'll be ending it with a lovely helium bag and good music on a loud speaker.
I just have nothing. I've never had anything. I will never have anything.
Fucking hate life man...
Like I just curled up to cry and then I realised that dinner's almost done and my mom will call me down any second and I don't want to have red, crying eyes around family. I am a 22 year old "MAN" curling up on his bed like a child to cry. I am a 300 pound "MAN" making himself as small as possible because he's sad about not having friends like he did when he was 9.
My own grandmother called me ugly yesterday, unprompted, insulting is not our style of talking to eachother for fun otherwise it wouldn't have affected me as much as it did although maybe she was joking. I don't know...
I want to die but I just can't bring myself to do it yet, I've given myself until 35 and if I'm still this way by then, I'll be ending it with a lovely helium bag and good music on a loud speaker.
I just have nothing. I've never had anything. I will never have anything.
Fucking hate life man...