I am so awkward and retarded

[Weed]

I feel fucking stupid, guilty, cringy and awkward when some things happen because of my fucked brain. My short term and long term memory is fucking shit, I have brain fog except at nights when I am alone. I am so awkward I have hugest brain fog near people except my parents. I just don't connect with humans at all except when I was a child I could find reletable to me people. I also have like 4 acne spots that make me feel even worse, my skin is fucking shit even after accutane. My lungs are fucked since Ive been smoking for 7 years and Im 20. The only thing I like in my brain is that for some reason I don't get depression although social anxiety and panic attacks are real, I had both of those when I had severe acne worst time of my life were when I was 15 y o - 18 y o. Now my social anxiety is mild I guess I am just shy as fuck and naturally I am retarded and stupid. Now I am gonna shower and feel better and forget that awkward moment that happened 30 mins ago because of my shit memory and awkwardness, I am glad I feel sleepy so I dont give as much shit as I would if I slept well

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[Blacktarpill]

Bro why you started smoking so early?

 

[Weed]

Bro why you started smoking so early?

My "friends" were like cmon and I also heard it deepened your voice, I didnt want to sound like some 9 y o xbox kid

 

[Blacktarpill]

My "friends" were like cmon and I also heard it deepened your voice, I didnt want to sound like some 9 y o xbox kid

Over for voicecels tbhtbhtbh
U should try to quit tbh.

 

[HighTGymcel]

same ded srs

 

[ReallyRice]

U should try to quit tbh.

 

[Deleted member 12355]

better to just stay away from all that shit, alcohol, weed, coke. Only fucks you up long term

 

[heroinfather]

Sad shit, man.

better to just stay away from all that shit, alcohol, weed, coke. Only fucks you up long term

>Weed bad

 

[Deleted member 12355]

Sad shit, man.

>Weed bad

 

[Deleted member 12355]

Drugs will make you cool and you can pick up stoner chicks and hookers will give you sex in exchange for drugs

Joined Jun 27, 2019

 

[Insomniac]

better to just stay away from all that shit, alcohol, weed, coke. Only fucks you up long term

Weed is good if you’re hopeless and have given up on life. Otherwise avoid it tbh..

 

[Deleted member 12355]

Weed is good if you’re hopeless and have given up on life. Otherwise avoid it tbh..

it's not even good for that as the temporary high it gives you is negated by how much it fucks you up

 

[heroinfather]

it's not even good for that as the temporary high it gives you is negated by how much it fucks you up

it doesn't fuck you up at all

 

[Deleted member 12355]

it doesn't fuck you up at all

cope, it dulls the mind and turns you into a nigger and or a nigger worshiper

 

[heroinfather]

cope, it dulls the mind and turns you into a nigger and or a nigger worshiper

wrong, alcohol if anything does more significant damage, and even then it is negligible if not abused.

 

[ihaveno1]

I just don't connect with humans at all

me too man, i hate humans

 

[misanthropekun]

me too man, i hate humans

Based

 

[Deleted member 17883]

me too man, i hate humans

Nigga you are a human.

 

[ihaveno1]

Nigga you are a human.

never felt human, never been treated like one by my peers, earth has never felt like home

 

[misanthropekun]

never felt human, never been treated like one by my peers, earth has never felt like home

 

[Deleted member 17883]

never felt human, never been treated like one by my peers, earth has never felt like home

I'm sorry bro.

Hey! You should buy a dog! That'll cheer you up!

 

[Deleted member 16455]

weed is great isnt it?

 

[littlemanhikicel]

I can relate with the brain fog. Forgoting things, acting like a retard. meanwhile in my home I have more character or my real personality , only interacting with my mom.

 

[Emba]

Did You have a lot of "silver" teeth fillings - or them "silver" teeth straightener/ protectors? That shit can fuck up your mind and body because there's a lot of mercury!!! Shit gave me early arthritis! (And bad memory(

 

[seija]

Stay away from drugs and medication, it fucks up the mind & body in the long term.

 

[StaroRavager]

never felt human, never been treated like one by my peers, earth has never felt like home

Slow down Randy . In all seriousness most people are shit when you come across them as an ince