I am gregorianchantsmaxxing

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They put me at ease. I meditate to those chants for hours on end sometimes. I actually enjoy meditating far more than I enjoy living my life. I have my own world I constructed in my head. Like Minecraft on creative mode I can make anything happen and explore myself. Though there are many locked doors I can't enter into which is pretty sad. I am still so far from where I want to be. Maybe DMT will help me.


View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-hrBhA4XkM&ab_channel=MeditativeMind



View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p_shhU_H5Z0&ab_channel=Veritas



View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xdroyjKs1Ls&ab_channel=wawirochi

 

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Inner coping.

 

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Inner coping.

I fucking despise this world. I am fully contempt with living my entire life in solace of my own mind. It makes no difference to me. Substitute a shitty reality with unchartered land of my soul. But I can't even do that because my mind is too weak right now. But I know the me I seek exists deep inside me, I have seen him there. I know he is there. I am just trying to find a way to get there so that I can ascend beyond all the pain and misery of my life.

If I do such a thing, being an incel won't even matter anymore, nothing will matter.

 

[Deleted member 17883]

I fucking despise this world. I am fully contempt with living my entire life in solace of my own mind. It makes no difference to me. Substitute a shitty reality with unchartered land of my soul. But I can't even do that because my mind is too weak right now. But I know the me I seek exists deep inside me, I have seen him there. I know he is there. I am just trying to find a way to get there so that I can ascend beyond all the pain and misery of my life.

If I do such a thing, being an incel won't even matter anymore, nothing will matter.

Say. If you had the chance to ascend this world but only to find compete darkness surrounding you and empty void but ease of mind as well. Will you sacrifice all this world pleasures for such existence?. I know you love dem vidyas and shit.