overbeforeitbegan
Deformed and sweaty
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- Joined
- Jul 30, 2024
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Today was my first day out of the mental health facility I found myself in after I tried to end it all. Waking up in hospital knowing I didn't calculate correctly and am now even more horribly disfigured was a brutal awakening.
My family have gathered around me and watching the pain in their eyes and suffering I have caused them has ripped a hole in my brain. I feel more suicidal than ever before and the cruel thing is I now know I can't kill myself, at least not until all my family have passed away. It's an extremely difficult reality shift.
Now I have nothing left ahead of me but suffering and hard work. I have to grit my teeth and make do with this insanely hellish lot in life. With a whole bunch of fucking disgusting marks all over my neck.
It's never been more over, and now I have to watch it play out before me.
My family have gathered around me and watching the pain in their eyes and suffering I have caused them has ripped a hole in my brain. I feel more suicidal than ever before and the cruel thing is I now know I can't kill myself, at least not until all my family have passed away. It's an extremely difficult reality shift.
Now I have nothing left ahead of me but suffering and hard work. I have to grit my teeth and make do with this insanely hellish lot in life. With a whole bunch of fucking disgusting marks all over my neck.
It's never been more over, and now I have to watch it play out before me.