Serious I am at one of the lowest points in my life

[11gaijin]

This happened about 2 years earlier too. I went into a mini depression after something bad happened, or I should say something good that I was expecting didn't happen. That was, co-incidentally, also the point when I found the blackpill, although I didn't completely swallow it immediately. Now I am feeling just like before. Again something bad happened in my life(something really good which I was expecting didn't happen) and I feel like I have hit another all time low. I am feeling more lonely then ever and scared too. I don't know how to escape this. It's 1:55 in the night right now and I just woke up after a few hours of sleep all alone in my apartment. I am always alone but the loneliness is much stronger and scarier.

Another thing which is eating me up is the fact that I recently said something bad to a person who I guess was in depression. I had been talking to them for about a year online. This person used to talk to me a lot and I knew they liked talking to me coz they were lonely and coz I always dealt with their bullshit which I am sure most people didn't do and that is the reason they were lonely. This time I too got annoyed and I said something bad. Even though this person always started to talk to me despite what I said, this time I haven't heard from them for over 2 weeks. And I have tried contacting them via multiple channels. I am getting scared and this guilt is eating me up even more. I am feeling as if I am now facing the consequences of what I did. Add to that my own misery and bad things that happened recently. I am at an all time low. I don't how to come out of this situation?

 

[PheneZ]

This happened about 2 years earlier too. I went into a mini depression after something bad happened, or I should say something good that I was expecting didn't happen. That was, co-incidentally, also the point when I found the blackpill, although I didn't completely swallow it immediately. Now I am feeling just like before. Again something bad happened in my life(something really good which I was expecting didn't happen) and I feel like I have hit another all time low. I am feeling more lonely then ever and scared too. I don't know how to escape this. It's 1:55 in the night right now and I just woke up after a few hours of sleep all alone in my apartment. I am always alone but the loneliness is much stronger and scarier.

Another thing which is eating me up is the fact that I recently said something bad to a person who I guess was in depression. I had been talking to them for about a year online. This person used to talk to me a lot and I knew they liked talking to me coz they were lonely and coz I always dealt with their bullshit which I am sure most people didn't do and that is the reason they were lonely. This time I too got annoyed and I said something bad. Even though this person always started to talk to me despite what I said, this time I haven't heard from them for over 2 weeks. And I have tried contacting them via multiple channels. I am getting scared and this guilt is eating me up even more. I am feeling as if I am now facing the consequences of what I did. Add to that my own misery and bad things that happened recently. I am at an all time low. I don't how to come out of this situation?

is this "person" a foid?

 

[ICanOnlyFapToBDSM]

lad is having troubles with his ladyboy oneitis innit

 

[thePhantom]

I assume you have tried to apologize sincerely (if not, then do) and still haven't heard from them. Then that's all you can do and no need to beat yourself up more. People make mistakes and you will learn from this. Regarding the depression, that problem can't be magically made to disappear, but I'm sure things will feel a lot less hopeless in the morning. As for now, either go sleep, of if you can't, focus on a TV-series or something to occupy you.

 

[Deleted member 1060]

Stay strong bro, hope that depressed guy did not rope and is doing okay.

 

[acnescarcel]

itz 0ver b0y0. get drunk/high & try to forget

 

[mikepence]

lad is having troubles with his ladyboy oneitis innit

tfw no depressed trap gf

 

[Deleted member 10124]

This happened about 2 years earlier too. I went into a mini depression after something bad happened, or I should say something good that I was expecting didn't happen. That was, co-incidentally, also the point when I found the blackpill, although I didn't completely swallow it immediately. Now I am feeling just like before. Again something bad happened in my life(something really good which I was expecting didn't happen) and I feel like I have hit another all time low. I am feeling more lonely then ever and scared too. I don't know how to escape this. It's 1:55 in the night right now and I just woke up after a few hours of sleep all alone in my apartment. I am always alone but the loneliness is much stronger and scarier.

Another thing which is eating me up is the fact that I recently said something bad to a person who I guess was in depression. I had been talking to them for about a year online. This person used to talk to me a lot and I knew they liked talking to me coz they were lonely and coz I always dealt with their bullshit which I am sure most people didn't do and that is the reason they were lonely. This time I too got annoyed and I said something bad. Even though this person always started to talk to me despite what I said, this time I haven't heard from them for over 2 weeks. And I have tried contacting them via multiple channels. I am getting scared and this guilt is eating me up even more. I am feeling as if I am now facing the consequences of what I did. Add to that my own misery and bad things that happened recently. I am at an all time low. I don't how to come out of this situation?

You're only human mate. Stay strong. Apologise to your pal and if possible meet up for a coffee.

 

[11gaijin]

I assume you have tried to apologize sincerely (if not, then do) and still haven't heard from them. Then that's all you can do and no need to beat yourself up more. People make mistakes and you will learn from this. Regarding the depression, that problem can't be magically made to disappear, but I'm sure things will feel a lot less hopeless in the morning. As for now, either go sleep, of if you can't, focus on a TV-series or something to occupy you.

Yeah, exactly as you said. I apologized but didn't hear back. Thanks for the suggestions bro.

You're only human mate. Stay strong. Apologise to your pal and if possible meet up for a coffee.

I've never met them irl.

 

[metal]

is a foid?

 

[11gaijin]

is this "person" a foid?

is a foid?

Does it make a difference?

 

[TheIncelStaresBack]

im almost in the same place as you man. The reality of how alone we are is frightening.

 

[PheneZ]

Does it make a difference?

Well huge difference, if it's a foid then it's not your fault and you shouldn't feel bad. If it's a fellow incel then you may wanna see what you could have done differently.

 

[11gaijin]

Well huge difference, if it's a foid then it's not your fault and you shouldn't feel bad. If it's a fellow incel then you may wanna see what you could have done differently.

yes it was a foid, she was a bit crazy I'd say. Why shouldn't I feel bad? I would normally not care but the fact that she was a bit crazy is what makes me feel guilty.

 

[kernkraft]

Be well boyo.

 

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