I'm not just depraved of sex for LITERALLY 27 years. That's not a typo, I really mean 27 not 17. I'm a fucking 27 year old virgin 
it doesn't get any more pathetic. I'm a piece of worthless garbage.
Anyway, like I was saying, it's not even just that I've never gotten laid, with the extreme sexual frustration that involves after 27 years. I'm lonely as FUCK. To me, having no one is just the way life is, and has always been. My "family" bullied me just like a school bully would except in my own home, and they were my parents and there was no teacher to tell. I got bullied at school too so most of my life has been 24/7 bullying. If I was able to get a girlfriend, I would have someone on my side who loves me for the first time ever. But ofc it's CHAD ONLY.
To top it off, having no real family, I'm fucking scared of running out of savings. If I lose my job and savings that's it for me I have nothing. I guess maybe my grandma or some friend would help but I'd rather not have to find out lol. On my first job, I was scared to death of losing it, nowadays not so much but still. Meanwhile other people's jobs are almost like a hobby since their parents are backing them, even if they consider themselves to be "independent". If I had a girlfriend, even though I don't actually know what relationships are like, it doesn't take a genius to figure out she wouldn't let me starve, buf ofc once again that's CHAD ONLY.
Everything I need in life and ever needed in order to ever know what it's like to be happy is chad only. I will die by roping without ever having known what it's like to be happy, and my body will be found months after in my apartment and only because my landlord will notice he's not getting paid, while chad just goes to a bar and girls just hit on him (and not just to hookup, girls always want a relationship). I'm a worthless piece of shit who will never be worthy of anything due to my bones not being the right shape/length by a few milimeters.
it doesn't get any more pathetic. I'm a piece of worthless garbage.Anyway, like I was saying, it's not even just that I've never gotten laid, with the extreme sexual frustration that involves after 27 years. I'm lonely as FUCK. To me, having no one is just the way life is, and has always been. My "family" bullied me just like a school bully would except in my own home, and they were my parents and there was no teacher to tell. I got bullied at school too so most of my life has been 24/7 bullying. If I was able to get a girlfriend, I would have someone on my side who loves me for the first time ever. But ofc it's CHAD ONLY.
To top it off, having no real family, I'm fucking scared of running out of savings. If I lose my job and savings that's it for me I have nothing. I guess maybe my grandma or some friend would help but I'd rather not have to find out lol. On my first job, I was scared to death of losing it, nowadays not so much but still. Meanwhile other people's jobs are almost like a hobby since their parents are backing them, even if they consider themselves to be "independent". If I had a girlfriend, even though I don't actually know what relationships are like, it doesn't take a genius to figure out she wouldn't let me starve, buf ofc once again that's CHAD ONLY.
Everything I need in life and ever needed in order to ever know what it's like to be happy is chad only. I will die by roping without ever having known what it's like to be happy, and my body will be found months after in my apartment and only because my landlord will notice he's not getting paid, while chad just goes to a bar and girls just hit on him (and not just to hookup, girls always want a relationship). I'm a worthless piece of shit who will never be worthy of anything due to my bones not being the right shape/length by a few milimeters.
