Be it watching animes, series, movies, playing games, reading manga, reading chinese novels, reading light novels, playing visual novels, watching porn, browsing reddit, browsing incel.is, social media, etc.
When i was younger i played on the PS2, instead of fucking and partying like other people did. Or i went to cyber cafes were you could play LOL with friends, i always enjoyed more interactions via the computer instead of doing sports or going out. I specially hated parties, i remember the first times i went to parties. What was there? Music i did not care about, alcohol which i did not enjoy that much and girls. What was i supposed to do? talk to them? they did not seem that interested.
A lot of people usually talk about how going out is more to have a good time with friends and not all about girls. And i always thought about those types of people as lying pieces of shit. As they always got a girl or what they talked about was about girls, not about fun things they did with friends. Unless it involded girls somehow.
I remember when i saw a tall white dude just get pulled by my then oneitis into a shade, possibly to kiss him and do other things. I was doing the surprised pikachu face, flabbergasted that a girl would do anything just to kiss a guy.
Then as time went on i continued spending time on the PC trying to find other things to do, if i finished a game i started watching anime if i finished an anime i started a manga and so on and so on. I remember friends inviting me to do stuff, but if they invited me to the pool i did not like doing it as i was always hairy and fat which would look bad and i would be concious about.
I remember that my group of friends consisted on some girls and some dudes, all liked anime and stuff. But i could not get that friendly with the girls, it was like there was always a barrier. I always thought to myself, what the fuck is wrong with me? Always being able to be friends with guys but not with girls.
Then i got older and older. Started working, same fuckign shit everyone is a fucking normie. Chads get girls and i'm there hearing about all their conquests, i'm not even sure why chads enjoy my company so much. At some point in my life i was always a chad's friend, and they tell me about hte girls they fuck and how they fuck them, about how girls go out partying and instead of taking care of their sick boyfriend they would go to party with the intention to fuck behind their BF's back.
About how the chicks on HR are sliding in their DMs and wanting to fuck them, etc. Going to work parties was the worst, being there with alcohol, chicks and having to force myself to talk to people i could not give less of a damn. I would have preffered 100% stay at home playing games. But nooo i have to go there and hear about all the normish stuff and how every girl wants to fuck my chad workmate, at the very least i usually got drunk and did not give that much of a fuck. But when you get drunk you also get depressed more easily, so it hurts a lot too.
So i am here, at 28 years thinking. Am i going to keep playing games till my old age, is that what i am supposed to be doing? But what's the alternative? I don't enjoy other things, and i can't get a girlfriend. Even if i could, could i keep her? I'm going to get cucked of course, even attractive dudes get cucked at some point or the other. The difference being their self-steem and self-worth, they can keep going. So yeah, fucked life.
When i was younger i played on the PS2, instead of fucking and partying like other people did. Or i went to cyber cafes were you could play LOL with friends, i always enjoyed more interactions via the computer instead of doing sports or going out. I specially hated parties, i remember the first times i went to parties. What was there? Music i did not care about, alcohol which i did not enjoy that much and girls. What was i supposed to do? talk to them? they did not seem that interested.
A lot of people usually talk about how going out is more to have a good time with friends and not all about girls. And i always thought about those types of people as lying pieces of shit. As they always got a girl or what they talked about was about girls, not about fun things they did with friends. Unless it involded girls somehow.
I remember when i saw a tall white dude just get pulled by my then oneitis into a shade, possibly to kiss him and do other things. I was doing the surprised pikachu face, flabbergasted that a girl would do anything just to kiss a guy.
Then as time went on i continued spending time on the PC trying to find other things to do, if i finished a game i started watching anime if i finished an anime i started a manga and so on and so on. I remember friends inviting me to do stuff, but if they invited me to the pool i did not like doing it as i was always hairy and fat which would look bad and i would be concious about.
I remember that my group of friends consisted on some girls and some dudes, all liked anime and stuff. But i could not get that friendly with the girls, it was like there was always a barrier. I always thought to myself, what the fuck is wrong with me? Always being able to be friends with guys but not with girls.
Then i got older and older. Started working, same fuckign shit everyone is a fucking normie. Chads get girls and i'm there hearing about all their conquests, i'm not even sure why chads enjoy my company so much. At some point in my life i was always a chad's friend, and they tell me about hte girls they fuck and how they fuck them, about how girls go out partying and instead of taking care of their sick boyfriend they would go to party with the intention to fuck behind their BF's back.
About how the chicks on HR are sliding in their DMs and wanting to fuck them, etc. Going to work parties was the worst, being there with alcohol, chicks and having to force myself to talk to people i could not give less of a damn. I would have preffered 100% stay at home playing games. But nooo i have to go there and hear about all the normish stuff and how every girl wants to fuck my chad workmate, at the very least i usually got drunk and did not give that much of a fuck. But when you get drunk you also get depressed more easily, so it hurts a lot too.
So i am here, at 28 years thinking. Am i going to keep playing games till my old age, is that what i am supposed to be doing? But what's the alternative? I don't enjoy other things, and i can't get a girlfriend. Even if i could, could i keep her? I'm going to get cucked of course, even attractive dudes get cucked at some point or the other. The difference being their self-steem and self-worth, they can keep going. So yeah, fucked life.
