From young age on I supported everyone as much as I could.
Since I am technically high IQ and learned a lot at just the age of 6, I continued to trach my fellow "friends" and "peers".
But beyond that I was always on the fordfront when it came to physical alterations.
I always jumped between two guys to get them apart and maybe that Set their rage aflame towards me instead. Not the results I expected, but I learned from it.
That said in Highschool a lot of teachers bullied the shit out of my classmates and I Whiteknighted hard. Always took the blame, always took the rage, always took any mistake of another person in my hand.
I guess its just how I was. 12/13/14/15 one still had belief in "humanity" (and thats what I say who is now diagnosed with ASPD).
Sometimes I was sitting till mid night doing "Group" presentations. Everyone unloading their load on my shoulders - they knew I was a A grade student. They knew I would make the best of "our" project.
I lended people money that I never got back, i presented girls with gift cards to their birthdays - where was theirs for me?
I was VERY extroverted in my teens - the complete opposite to my now completely socially anxious and introverted 25 yo me.
How many times have I been fucked over, belittled, discriminated and cast out for either my looks or opinion?
Itll be to many to count...
Even the ones I thought I was the closest friends with, couldn't have given less of a shit about me.
One guy, i went to 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th and 8th grade. We were on each others birthday parties, we played a video game with each other, we drew pictures, we helped others but also ourselves with homework. We cheered each other on when it was a school project, we jestermaxxed and laughted.
4 months - literally just Summer Vacation between the end of 8th and 9th grade - I changed Highschool - I met this guy at a Bus stop, say "Hey man! Havent seen each other in a few weeks!"
Then a random girl shows up, never seen her before "Whos that guy" regarding me.
"Ignore him".
Me: "What?"
Him: "Yah hey man."
Me: "So how are you doing?"
Him: "Fine. But we need to go! We got something to do?"
Me: "What are you doing?"
Him: "Yah, see ya."
Me: "Uhm? Yeah...see ya..."
I will never forget that scene, that conversation. Me then sitting ok the chair of that bus stop thking to myself "What just happened?" I was sitting there for like 3 hours before I went home.
Few days later I probably had one of my first "Redpilled" moment, dven before I truly became Blackpilled. I thought...IF THAT GUY IS NOT MY FRIEND - WHO IS?!
I never saw or heard of that guy again...
He also cannot be found over any Social Media, he just vanished.
Marco. My last "friend".
Since I am technically high IQ and learned a lot at just the age of 6, I continued to trach my fellow "friends" and "peers".
But beyond that I was always on the fordfront when it came to physical alterations.
I always jumped between two guys to get them apart and maybe that Set their rage aflame towards me instead. Not the results I expected, but I learned from it.
That said in Highschool a lot of teachers bullied the shit out of my classmates and I Whiteknighted hard. Always took the blame, always took the rage, always took any mistake of another person in my hand.
I guess its just how I was. 12/13/14/15 one still had belief in "humanity" (and thats what I say who is now diagnosed with ASPD).
Sometimes I was sitting till mid night doing "Group" presentations. Everyone unloading their load on my shoulders - they knew I was a A grade student. They knew I would make the best of "our" project.
I lended people money that I never got back, i presented girls with gift cards to their birthdays - where was theirs for me?
I was VERY extroverted in my teens - the complete opposite to my now completely socially anxious and introverted 25 yo me.
How many times have I been fucked over, belittled, discriminated and cast out for either my looks or opinion?
Itll be to many to count...
Even the ones I thought I was the closest friends with, couldn't have given less of a shit about me.
One guy, i went to 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th and 8th grade. We were on each others birthday parties, we played a video game with each other, we drew pictures, we helped others but also ourselves with homework. We cheered each other on when it was a school project, we jestermaxxed and laughted.
4 months - literally just Summer Vacation between the end of 8th and 9th grade - I changed Highschool - I met this guy at a Bus stop, say "Hey man! Havent seen each other in a few weeks!"
Then a random girl shows up, never seen her before "Whos that guy" regarding me.
"Ignore him".
Me: "What?"
Him: "Yah hey man."
Me: "So how are you doing?"
Him: "Fine. But we need to go! We got something to do?"
Me: "What are you doing?"
Him: "Yah, see ya."
Me: "Uhm? Yeah...see ya..."
I will never forget that scene, that conversation. Me then sitting ok the chair of that bus stop thking to myself "What just happened?" I was sitting there for like 3 hours before I went home.
Few days later I probably had one of my first "Redpilled" moment, dven before I truly became Blackpilled. I thought...IF THAT GUY IS NOT MY FRIEND - WHO IS?!
I never saw or heard of that guy again...
He also cannot be found over any Social Media, he just vanished.
Marco. My last "friend".
