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When you find yourself thinking about your past and you notice that virtually nothing changed. Your childhood, your teen years, your early adulthood, but it's the same old shit. You always find yourself alone wondering why is it so and what you can do about it. "When I grow up things will get better" they never did.
Year after year and you always find yourself in the same situation. The same dark room. The same plight. You miserably try to make out for the lost years try harding, coping that things can still work out for you despite all the experiences you had telling you otherwise.
You hold on to these infantile ideas that you know deep down will never happen "I'll get surgery", "I'll leave my country", "I'll luck out", "I'll moneymaxx". You won't. You're not special, you're nobody.
Yet, you can't help yourself but keep thinking, in this hellish loop, what if... things were different. You don't want it to be over, you want to keep watching the movie. But you look around and the screen is turned off, there's none but you in the theater. You don't want the movie to end, but it ended a long time ago, you're to only one there.
Year after year and you always find yourself in the same situation. The same dark room. The same plight. You miserably try to make out for the lost years try harding, coping that things can still work out for you despite all the experiences you had telling you otherwise.
You hold on to these infantile ideas that you know deep down will never happen "I'll get surgery", "I'll leave my country", "I'll luck out", "I'll moneymaxx". You won't. You're not special, you're nobody.
Yet, you can't help yourself but keep thinking, in this hellish loop, what if... things were different. You don't want it to be over, you want to keep watching the movie. But you look around and the screen is turned off, there's none but you in the theater. You don't want the movie to end, but it ended a long time ago, you're to only one there.