LDAR How to handle the anxiety/fear of dying with the fatalism of knowing "it never began"? (Losing my mind?)

[smoljaw69]

There is a world out there, but it ain't for us.

We are physically disabled and our problems are gaslighted to oblivion.

There is no hope, no respect. Our Self awareness of this shithole called Earth has opened our eyes to darkest places of the human condition

Yet for some reason I still get anxious/scared of ropemaxxin. I have made myself comfortably miserable that the thought of speeding up the inevitable feels wrong.

I feel angry by living the life I was given. Specialy when I know other who were "chosen" to live better lives. Going ER would definitely alleviate that anger, it would balance the injustice, but again, speeding up the inevitable feels wrong. (I guess I would just go ER if I had a terminal illness diagnosed).

And I am not talking only about foids, probably all modern women have already been spoiled by social media it is not even worth chasing them. Even Chad suffers from that disastrous combination. Foids and their infinite simp audience. The normie narcissism is comically painful to watch.

My issue is with people in general, I can't connect with anyone now as an adult. Every friendship is transactional and I have no desire to "give". Especially when I feel like everything has been stolen from me.

Maybe one day I will have my revenge on this world before it kills me, I guess that is my cope. One day the normies, Chad and Stacy will suffer just like us.

 

[starystulejarz]

I welcome death with open arms it will end all my suffering and i will finally truly won't need to care about anything anymore especially foids. I feel no attachment to this hell of a planet i always hated living there. There is a reason why i only feel at ease while meditating. This reality is just a living hell of existence and only leaving your mind and body gives you some temporal relief.