I was boring of escorting.
Then I met a girl at job. At the beginning I had clear she was out of my league I was pretty blackpilled. But we got close because we took the same route. Since that job had mostly middle age people. I felt like the protagonist after a very long time because I got close to a young girl who happened to be one of the most atractive (ok face, tits, ass and not fat!!!). I had to recall my standards are pretty low I'd be happy with a BBW. People gossip about me plowing this foid. I felt I was the protagonist of my life after....decades!!!!!!! I felt somewhat alive!!!
But then a Nicaraguan guy that althought not tall. Still taller than me was catching her attention. I couldnt believe a fucking Nicaraguan was fucking her!!!!!!!
Saw her and him "haciendose ojitos" at work was soul crushing!!!!!!!! People were gossiping he was fucking her!!
Context:, I'm from Costa Rica and Nicaraguans are our version of Mexicans. Costa Ricans tend to look "white-passing" meanwhile Nicaraguans are a clusterfuck of Native and black.
I couldnt believe. This guy was a beaner, had hypnothized this girl!!!
In the company party I realized my oneitis snorts Tusi (pink ketamine+MDMA) and she often meets with the mechanic. A tall white man. I felt better but she still "haciendose ojitos" with the Nicaraguan guy.
Another reason was ok with the mechanic and my Oneitis relation was due to drugs. I naively thought drugs were the key to get out of inceldom!!! So I went with them to the mountains and tripping so I could experience drugs. How wrong I was!!
The mechanic (who had a wife and child) and my oneitis gave me weed, tusi and MDMA. Only enjoyed MDMA.
I got fired from that job because sexual assault. Yep. I left a coworker shirt trying to flirt so I could forget my oneitis because it was soul-crushing seeing how a Nicaraguan was taking my oneitis! Didnt work.
Then I work in a low life place where I met cocaine! It was high quality cocaine and the high without fap felt somewhat like MDMA.
Got addict. Wasted too much money jacking off thinking when I got a car (because I got a job settlement) and getting a gf and shit.
Tried cocaine+escortmaxxing and it felt good BUT I was so in good mood I went to three prostitutes more than twice while on coke thinking the problem was the prostitute.
Finally realized the key was MDMA+viagra+prostitutes but it was too late. Wasted all the money and got fired because got recorded snorting coke at job.
I snorted so much coke and beer that once I would have a heart attack. Went at hospital at night, my mom did so many questions I finally said her it was due to coke. And now I have no money, no savings, a worse job (56 hrs shift rotative shift instead my 48 hrs non-rotational shift I once had or the low life job where I could attend whenever I please!!! ) and cant even escortmax while on MDMA once a month because mom has a closer look To my finances.
And the worst part is that at some point the oneitis that once promised me that "we will always be friends" sent me a message in instagram saying she doesnt want to know anything about me!!! Althought I did the most cuckest things for her!!!
I literally feel like Henry Hill from Goodfellas or Gene Takovic from Better Call Saul.
At this point my only way of Ascencion is like comicbook Reed Richards. Otherwise Im started to accept the Wizzardpill.
Then I met a girl at job. At the beginning I had clear she was out of my league I was pretty blackpilled. But we got close because we took the same route. Since that job had mostly middle age people. I felt like the protagonist after a very long time because I got close to a young girl who happened to be one of the most atractive (ok face, tits, ass and not fat!!!). I had to recall my standards are pretty low I'd be happy with a BBW. People gossip about me plowing this foid. I felt I was the protagonist of my life after....decades!!!!!!! I felt somewhat alive!!!
But then a Nicaraguan guy that althought not tall. Still taller than me was catching her attention. I couldnt believe a fucking Nicaraguan was fucking her!!!!!!!
Saw her and him "haciendose ojitos" at work was soul crushing!!!!!!!! People were gossiping he was fucking her!!
Context:, I'm from Costa Rica and Nicaraguans are our version of Mexicans. Costa Ricans tend to look "white-passing" meanwhile Nicaraguans are a clusterfuck of Native and black.
I couldnt believe. This guy was a beaner, had hypnothized this girl!!!
In the company party I realized my oneitis snorts Tusi (pink ketamine+MDMA) and she often meets with the mechanic. A tall white man. I felt better but she still "haciendose ojitos" with the Nicaraguan guy.
Another reason was ok with the mechanic and my Oneitis relation was due to drugs. I naively thought drugs were the key to get out of inceldom!!! So I went with them to the mountains and tripping so I could experience drugs. How wrong I was!!
The mechanic (who had a wife and child) and my oneitis gave me weed, tusi and MDMA. Only enjoyed MDMA.
I got fired from that job because sexual assault. Yep. I left a coworker shirt trying to flirt so I could forget my oneitis because it was soul-crushing seeing how a Nicaraguan was taking my oneitis! Didnt work.
Then I work in a low life place where I met cocaine! It was high quality cocaine and the high without fap felt somewhat like MDMA.
Got addict. Wasted too much money jacking off thinking when I got a car (because I got a job settlement) and getting a gf and shit.
Tried cocaine+escortmaxxing and it felt good BUT I was so in good mood I went to three prostitutes more than twice while on coke thinking the problem was the prostitute.
Finally realized the key was MDMA+viagra+prostitutes but it was too late. Wasted all the money and got fired because got recorded snorting coke at job.
I snorted so much coke and beer that once I would have a heart attack. Went at hospital at night, my mom did so many questions I finally said her it was due to coke. And now I have no money, no savings, a worse job (56 hrs shift rotative shift instead my 48 hrs non-rotational shift I once had or the low life job where I could attend whenever I please!!! ) and cant even escortmax while on MDMA once a month because mom has a closer look To my finances.
And the worst part is that at some point the oneitis that once promised me that "we will always be friends" sent me a message in instagram saying she doesnt want to know anything about me!!! Althought I did the most cuckest things for her!!!
I literally feel like Henry Hill from Goodfellas or Gene Takovic from Better Call Saul.
At this point my only way of Ascencion is like comicbook Reed Richards. Otherwise Im started to accept the Wizzardpill.
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